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2009-08-24T17:43:00.003+08:00

I've found a new space for my thoughts =)

Psst: It's here...

Happy Ramadan

2009-08-23T23:38:00.000+08:00

Because food isn’t only what you see with your naked eyes

Because food may come in a way of what you feel

Because feelings…it is something that the mind doesn’t understand

Because one can live life without the mind but one can’t live life without a heart

The one..

2009-08-23T23:15:00.001+08:00

Cant deny the fact that

Im missing that someone

Actually..

She's adorably cute!

2009-08-23T22:19:00.006+08:00

I was about to go terawih when this little baby of mine says:

Iqa: "Kakak, wait. I also want to wear the scarf like you"

And there she goes, putting on her a white scarf.

Iqa: "I want to wear this like you when we go lalan (jalan)"

Me: "But kakak not going jalan. Kakak want to go pray. Ok, next time you go jalan, Iqa can wear this okay?"

Iqa: "Ibu ibu!! Kakak say next time I go lalan can wear this like kakak. Can or not ibu?"

Ibu was smiling at the other hand.

Aww... See.. How amazingly cute and adorable can this little kid be. The way she said it, its like as if she really mean that. Alhamdulillah. I will always pray the best for my family. Early morning, the family made a trip to Pusara Aman. It's been 100 plus days Arwah atok and Arwah Auntie has left us. Coincidentally, the BF was also there. Right after that, went to B.H.

*Sebak lagi hati di dada*

Tried to refrain myself from pouring out cause I don't think it's quite appropriate either to do so. I wonder how he's doing inside. This Thursday comes the final sentence and I jsut pray that it's not going to a tough journey for him.

- Cause of that, the house is pretty gloomy now -

Marhaban Yaa Ramadan

2009-08-22T17:17:00.004+08:00

Tiada kerinduan yang sangat dalam,

Selain rindunya hati pada bulan yang mulia ini.

Tiada kenikmatan yang sangat indah,

Selain nikmatnya ibadah dibulan yang suci dan magfiroh ini.

- Kepadanya ku mencari ketenangan hati -

PELANGI

2009-08-22T01:08:00.004+08:00

Kadang-kadang Allah sembunyikan matahari,

DIA datangkan petir dan kilat.

Kita tertanya-tanya kemana hilangya matahari,

Rupa-rupanya Allah memberikan kita pelangi ...

"Kebahagiaan itu seperti pelangi, tidak pernah terlihat di atas kepala sendiri, tetapi selalu di atas kepala orang lain" - (Thomas Hardy)

the midnight soul

2009-08-21T01:05:00.002+08:00

I think Im absolutely nervous for Chemistry UT that I found myself sleeping at 10pm and accidentally woke up at 11pm feeling hungry and restless. Told mum and sis that I'm hungry and can't get back to sleep. Then, mum decided for a Mac. Happy aku! So, sis, bro Dydy and cuzzie tagged along and the 5 of us headed to Woodlands Mart MacDonalds. This is the first time I'm acting this way. Habes arhh!

*Perangai budak gemok abes!!!*

I thought now would be a good timing to do some last recap on Chemistry. But then, here I am on bloggy. Ouh what a mugger!

Verdict at 9am tomorrow. One week in B.H and One more week to go before the final sentence. Everyone is holding on strong and one thing for sure. I felt so "terkilan" because I didnt had the chance to see him on the last day. You'll always be in my prayer and I will always pray the best for you. Im gonna miss you so much.

Ouh aneways, holy month is just one day away. The day where all muslims in the world participates and refraining themselves from eating, drinking, sexual contact and etc. I've been looking so much for this day. To all my Muslim friends..

"Selamat menjalani Ibadah Puasa"

Not ready..

2009-08-20T00:15:00.002+08:00

The lil niece pushed my face away from kissing her goodnight.

She forcefully says that I had durians when I didnt even had any.

*blearrghs*

The BF passed his class 3 TP last two days. Congrats love. But please pardon me, Im still not yet ready to be in the car that you're gonna drive. Heehs.

And yesterday marks our special day again.

Happy anniversary Love ...

= 190809 =

Microbiology UT is down. That left with 3 more UT's to go.

Im nervous and extremely nervous.

Another shocking news today that totally made the whole family in tears.

Im not ready. Really. Not ready for the verdict YET.

Please, Im praying the best for HIM.

- Im not ready to lose you -

2009-08-18T17:10:00.001+08:00

I know that Im not suppossed to act this way. Neither should I be having those feelings. It's so unlike me. Really. I don't want to lie to myself, neither do I want to lie to others. The nightmares seems to take control of everything now. Trying very hard to decide what's best. Now I shall say that's the mechanism of life that Im going through now.

Unveiling the mysteries of truth. Pertaining to all the secrets that's happening in the family, I'm trying my very best to do everything that is good for us all. A special thanks to this "hamba Allah" that has sincerely helped me. Going all the way just to tell me everything. Every single thing that has been a mystery to us. Deep down my heart, I know I want nothing but the best of everything for my loved ones.

None of us wants something that is bad for anyone. No matter how bad a person mistakes can be, I believe that every single human being in this world should be given the chance to change themselves. Im excited yet nervous. Thousands of emotions are running through the mind now. Im not quite sure if I can be at the best service for them now. But deep down my heart, I know I want all this to be settled for once. Like I said, I just want nothing but the best for us all. And I really mean it.

With HIS permissions, I'm praying for a better tomorrow. All of us back as one before the special day comes. That's my wish.

To all my RP mates, all the best for upcoming UT 3. Study hard people and happy happy holidays.

- Follow what the heart says and not the mind -

2009-08-16T22:30:00.000+08:00

I never knew that revising for UT 3 would be such a headache. I missed certain problems due to hospitalisation and LOA. Missed all the UT 2. So, it's double the weightage for UT 3. PP report have yet to be completed.

Sometimes, I just feel that Im at the verge of breaking down. I think I need those Vitamin pills. Plus all the things that's happening lately, it's double the blow to me. Im not sure if I can be entertained or entertain you. I just wanna get this UT 3 over and done so that I can regain myself back again.

And.. I just need you to understand the situation that I'm in now. Please dont make things worse. I know I'm always a pain in your ass. It's always been me. You know what? I give up. Really. I can't take it anymore.

- It's enough hearing the word that I've been longing for so long from you -

2009-08-16T01:10:00.001+08:00

Thanks to Ibu and Umi for making a mini celebration for Dydy's birthday. See, both your mom and the family loves you. Dont ever say that we forgot your birthday hokays? Aneways, its nice looking at the family all together again =)

P.S: Ur bdae present will be a belated one alrite?

Up next, cam-whoring with my two lil rascals right after tutoring them. The last shoot, I managed to pull in my mum. Heehs. Love you mummy =))

Ouh aneways, I tried to tell you and in fact, did told you the truth. It's unlike me to keep anything and worst still, lying to myself. I know I cant. So, it's a matter of fact of whether you being able to accept those or not. When you said it's all about trust, so, that is what Im potraying to you now. So, dont try to give me all those shits. It's so unlike you. Really. But if you think that's right for you, then go ahead.

Ouh, I got home with a swollen knee today. Mini bike accident. Wells, I blindly knocked onto a bike actually. Weird, but true and the knee is in real pain. Hoping that the icing will work for now.

-Praying for a better tomorrow-

2009-08-14T11:27:00.004+08:00

It was the last problem for BioChemistry and we decided for some cam-whoring.

We have the FB kakis, the 'PON' kakis, the movie kakis and the perangai kakis.

Name it all. We have almost everything here. *giggles*

So then, the usual kakis were comtemplating to partial or not.

The faci were actually a pain in my ass. Like for real.

So, in the end, we decided for a movie. Woohoo!

I know I shouldnt be typing this down because

the BF does not even know about this matter AT ALL. *oooops*

Aneways, it's over pon. Soorry love.

And I know you would be reading this, please

forgive me for ONCE? kk?

From above left: Nana, Lyy, Qahh, Ida

Aneways, I shall say that this bunch of people really rocks the journey of my Biochemistry lesson especially Randal. Im at always at loggerheads with him FYI. Hehe!

It's worth my 6 bucks alright? Like really.. I have Atiqah on my left, closing the eyes for some parts, Ida on my right, closing the ears, Lydia two seats away throwing popcorns at Wan and people at back. Gerek or what? LOL. Off for my tutoring right after the movie and it's my payday. Weehoo!

Love fetch me at home later at night for dinner at Al-Azhar Bukit Timah. Ibu and baba was busy removing the oil paint of the door house when we reached home. Yeay! Finally there's gonna be a new colour on the house door.

Ouh and again. It's Dydy birthday today. Happy 18th Birthday Bro... Daa besar, tolong be wise k My Alien bro! Aku sayang kau ehk!

2009-08-12T22:02:00.002+08:00

My newest addiction. "Nur Kasih"

I shall thanks my two ladies here, Farahehh and Aeisha'B for

talking so much about the drama that one day, I found myself

24/7 on youtube just for this.

The story of love. Love towards religion, parents, family and oneself.

Perseverance. Patience. Empathy. Love.

P.S: You'll find the beautiful and true elements of Islam.

2009-08-10T00:40:00.006+08:00

Too many things,

With so little time ...

Not so soon for any post.

Long hiatus I guess ...

2009-08-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

Love is already on its way to KL for four days straight. Hurhur! Sad sad... Very very sad. And now, for the first time I felt what he felt exactly when I always have to go JB or Melake. KK.. Enuf said...

P.S: Have fun in KL love.

In class alone today, I tried entertaining myself from thinking too much about his getaway.. I shall thanks my "Biols and the sewels" partners of Microbiology for kicking my asss today. LOL!

Meet them: Nizzam "Pak Awang", Jeremy "Bangs", Farah Ehh and Shida...

Why pak awang and bangs ehk?? It's gonna be our lil secret....

- Aku sayang korang ehk! -

Aneways, UT 3 is up the schedule. Two of my students are sitting for their PSLE prelims paper soon. PP yet to be completed. Oh my! There's just so many things to do with so little time. I think I may just collapse any time from now.

"Please don't get yourself too stressed up Liyana. You might produce those acidic juices in your stomach and those gastritis might become worse" - someone told me that.

The body, the mind is totally drained out of cells. Physically and mentally tired. *blearrgh*

2009-08-06T13:30:00.001+08:00

Fireworks cum bowling.

Someone tried to please me at the first impression.

3 strikes in a row which results to a TURKEY!

Mind you, I've never gotten any TURKEY in my life and

there goes this boy happily showing off his skills to me.

Please dun eksyen with me ehk Mr Apis.

''Lepas tuh, show off his action face to me. Takper takper!!''

However, as the second round and real competition begins,

his final colours showed off.

Ouh just what a luck boy, that 3 strikes on your first round were

merely by chance hokays??

Haha! Still!! I won you! And remember ehkk..

You owe me a flip flap flup flop..hehe!

And you're right to say that I'm a better bowler than you hokays?? *giggles*

"I win you of course!!"

- And this boy is going to leave me alone for four days straight this whole weekend. Hurhur!! Have fun in KL boy.. -

2009-08-03T22:00:00.003+08:00

This little sayang of mine forcefully forced me to open up the wrapper of my teddy.

Hurhur. The teddy from BFF, Syaz that I have kept for 3 years now.

Still kept safely and unwrapped eversince 25 Nov 06.

However, yesterday marks the official opening ceremony of my teddy.

And look here, she's happily in love posing with this teddy of mine.

"Kakak pleaasshh pleasssh. I want to touch the bear hair. Pleassh kakak pleaasssh"

And now please tell me how can I not fall to a little girl sweet talking?

I know, she's just too adorable to resist. That is why she's my life now.

I think those teddy, bear bear, garfield and Taz is taking a little too much

space on my queen size bed. Heehs. I'm not being a childish nor a

fun-naiirtic but Im just being appreciative of the thoughts and gifts from loved ones. =)

- The Big Taz is still the best but the Mickey will be my addict now. k? -

2009-08-01T09:01:00.003+08:00

I wonder what's your motive now.

Serious, it just leaves me in deep thinking.

For whatever reasons it is,

I really do hope that you are not here to tear my heart apart again.

I really do misses you alot and only GOD knows how long I've been keeping that feeling alone.

- When you only live in my dreams -

2009-07-31T13:33:00.002+08:00

The "ENDOSCOPY" was a total pain.

Yes, it was. I cried. Yes I did and I don't care.

I saw the whole process. Yes I did.

I saw the inside's of my stomach. Yes I did.

I saw the gastritis in the stomach. Yes I did too.

I saw the camera tube went right into my mouth and to stomach and to the small intestine.

Ouhh yes! I saw it all. Worst still, I felt the camera tube. Ewwww!

Even right at home, I just cant stop crying thinking about the whole process.

And now the throat is in a whole lot pain. ALOT!

Thank you nurse for holding on to my hands.

And this is so gonna be the last time I'm ever going for Endoscopy.

Very sure and ain't letting that gastritis develop even more.

I say.

- Ouhh boyy. Thank you alot for your comfort. -

2009-07-29T21:40:00.001+08:00

First.....You came, you left. You came again, then you left. Now, you are back again, I wonder if you'll leave again. It teared me when you did this to me. One year plus of waiting and now, finally. GOD gave me the answers. Ouh wells, at least Im really contented. FOR NOW.

"And how many times I gave my heart. To how many times we fell apart, And it equals A promise in the dark. So don't promise me"

At least I know that "I'm still a part of you although ...." Time can never be rewind. Pictures left were meant to be memories. And it's those memories that pulled me through. I know this may sound stupid. I've heard enough from people. That I'm dumb to keep thinking about you. I smell you still. In fact, up till now. What can I do if the heart really says so?

You know me. If the heart really says so, then it's gonna be as it is. No matter what. But but..... Why only now? Why didnt you came earlier? The point of time when I needed you the most? Don't you think that it's a little too late now? 'Cause, I have him. And he have me. He loves me and I loves him too. But.... It tickles me though when...I still find myself still not over you. You should know that...

"When I love someone, I will love the person will all my heart"

You know me too well right? Although we can never be like in the past, only the word FRIENDS can pull us through now. Im telling you this. If you're missing without any words again, Then I swear that I will hate you for the rest of my life. Let alone me forgiving you.

-BBy, I think you should be proud of having me although .... -

2009-07-29T21:10:00.001+08:00

Someone asked me this. What if one day.......?

You're asking me a question and shouldnt that be Im the one giving you the answers?

Well.. You gave me no choice and not even time to listen to my thoughts.

You merely went all the way right even before I could say anything.

Fine hokays? You'd rather spare THAT person's feelings than mine.

It's okay. Maybe as for now. I'll just make things go as it is.

Just don't be sorry if one day I make that decision.

That decision that you'll regret it forever.

As much as I've tried, Im holding on for now.

It's been NINE years.

Amazing that Im still holding on just for you.

But little did you know that.

2009-07-27T15:40:00.000+08:00

I have exactly four more days for my "SCOPE" appointment.

Naaah.. Just getting a bit paranoid and restless.

Arrgggh. I've been asking people on how scope is done.

Research here and there. I know its not a big deal...

But the feelings just got extremely worse now.

Ouhhhh puuhhlleeeasssshh. Help me.

Im really having a hard time getting myself mentally prepared for this :/

P.S: Thinking about the camera tube going down my throat and to the stomach really gives me goosebumps. I think this even worse than the surgery I've ever been too.

Waffle with Banana Milkshake was a splendid duo.

My tummy is all full now. Wait OOooops! Did I just drank Milk?

Ouuhh Shaaackks! So much for my belon-ness again..

Didn't the doctor reminded me again and again not to have any milk for now??

How great can that be Lyy??? Now......

I'll just pray that those gastric wont react again.

And someone also actually crack my butt today.

So much for wanting to fry a rice with daun pandan instead of vegetables.

Okay2, must pardon that person. Sick right, so....

The thinking isn't that wise enough.

Heehs. You feel that pinch on you is it Mr Hafiz??

Ouhh just please don't be angry with me baby...

Your beloness just light up my Monday bluuuesss :P

That is why I really love you.

2009-07-26T23:27:00.005+08:00

The story of the old nanny cracker is everywhere now. It's hard to believe those unless you really experience it. Serves me right for not going to school last Friday and I experienced the old nanny cracker came knocking on my door. Lucky my elder sis was home and all I can say, both of us were extremely shiverring and hugging in the room till that nanny went away. Sis cried but I didnt. LOL.

Saturday alone, I had two tutoring. One at Sengkang and the other was at Yishun. Too tired that I msg the word "nantok" instead of "ngantok" to Farahehh. And she literally laugh her ass off when we met up for our tutoring at Yishun. Thnks ehk Farahehh.. LOL! And Up to date, I have three students now and seriously, I kinda feel worn out after sometime.

"Stress tau ajak budak yang malas dari ajar budak yang slow learner."

After tutoring, went to Grandfather's house and lepak there. Sayang Atok and Nenek!!!

Alhamdulillah. As for today, I am $1200 richer. The application for the CCC Bursary was a success and that explains it. Bf has been having fever since yesterday. I was out with the family when he says that he wanted to go the hospital. So, daddy drove me to his house. Looking at bf so weak, daddy sent us to Alexandra Hospital. Poor love. Well, as he was suspected to have come close in contact with a H1N1 patient, he was sent to the observation room. So, there I had to wait alone for nearly 4 hours because the rest had to head for home first. sampaikan tertido aku kat situ. LOL. But then, I shall say thanks to Atiqah for accompanying me ''sms-ing'' througout and entertain me. I suker sesangat!! Hehe!! Alhamdulillah, the blood test was normal. Flag the cab and sent Bf home first.

"Please get well soon and very soon k bby?"

-You know I love you because you are not held back. 'Cause if you are, then I'll have to cry making the way home alone. *pout lips* -

2009-07-21T12:19:00.004+08:00

I simply loooove mY Ladies.... Allooot!!!

P.S: OMG! I can't stop listening to BLACK. In lurve w his VOICE =)

2009-07-20T22:22:00.002+08:00

For those of you who watched Mentor 3, all I can say. BLACK is totally AWESOME!!!!

His voice is totally power laa!

P.S: Click pause on my playlist first before playing the video clip.

2009-07-20T13:11:00.003+08:00

For some reasons, I really wished that

I wouldn't have to wake up from that dream.

It's been so long since you last left me.

And now that you were back in my dreams again,

I feel it so hard to let you go.

Ouh please, someone! Wake me up from my lalaland.

*bang bang bang the head on the wall*

----------------------------------------------------

School - Back to school tomorrow after a week of hospitalisation leave.

'Cause of the hospitalised, I missed 3 FREAKING UT's.

Gerrrek kaper?????? And for some reasons, I've decided to go to school later for

Microbiology UT 2. GOD Please bless me.

K bye.

2009-07-19T22:36:00.005+08:00

Received this MMS from Cha'B while they were busy getting ready for comp. Apparently, Endang is having competition today and I did gave my well wishes to my pretty ladies. I know they can do it yaw =)

I know its kinda belated but heck care. To Endang!! You go girls =))

Not forgetting too, It's our lil lady 20th Birthday today. Finally, someone is a year older now. Heehs. Now, HAALF is just perfectly complete with everyone in their early 20's. Welcome to the Club 20's babeh and Happy Birthday darla.

And to my bby... Thank you for the new bantal bucuk. Btw cyg, age doesnt matter for one having a bantal bucuk. Now, tell me. Who agrees with me. Those who doesnt, let us begin debating now. Haha. Like for real.

P.S: Bye bye HEART, Hello MICKEY =))

So again, I'll be back in school on Tuesday. Okay Atiqah. Read this. I'm coming back to school on TUESDAY. My appointment, I changed the dates. WeeehooOooo!! So, I meet u in class kays?

-We are 3months old today. ILY-

2009-07-17T12:00:00.000+08:00

I feel that Im so lost in touch with the world now,

especially school ever since the hospitalisation. It's shuccky I tell you.

Haiz. 7 Days of hospitalisation leave and mind you, I missed all the 4 freaking UTs.

LOA application is approved but.... There can never be a retake of UT 2.

Thus, the weightage of UT1: UT3 will be 1:2. Gerek kaper? Wahh lau weii..

I tell you.... I have to study double the triple for UT 3. If not, there goes my chances of even passing all the modules.

Now tell me, who wants all this thing to happen right?

I don't want to be sick and I don't ask for it either. It's saddening. I know.

Now, everything is just a little too much for me to handle.

The gastritis pain comes on and off. Like macam tak bersalah gitu.

And when that happens, there goes aku, merengkok kat katil satu macam.

This is not favoured by me of course.

The family said that I've lost so much weight now. And that..

My pipi dah tak tembam lagi. Dah tak gendut lagi macam dulu...

BF says.. Dah takde babat lagi... Wahhhhh....

Sad kaper???? I tell you... I've had enough of that sey...

So, these past few days were mainly spent lying on the bed,

eating medicines and back to lying on the bed.

And yesterday, Mama (BF mum) called me.

Thought it was the BF calling me, sekali Mama pulak call.

She was rather concerned about my health though.

I can sense those worriedness in her voice.

Sejuk hati aku dengar suara mama.

Thank you for the advises mama.

Not forgetting too. BFF, SYAZWANI visited me.

I know, it's been ages since we last met. Upon hearing my condition,

she dropped by my house. Sayang betol dia kat aku. Its nice looking that our friendship still grows in each other's heart even though we're far apart now.

Syaz last words:

Thanks for smiling.

I hope you still treasure our friendship

and hope there will be no one that can replace me.

Like you do, ur still the best tau awak.

You take care ok awak? Promise?

I promise that I'll take care of myself k awak??

As per planned, the family and all the cousins will be heading for Melacca tonight.

Grandmother has decided for a traditional curing for my gastritis.

Insyaallah and hopefully it'll work.

So, I'll be back in Singapore on Sunday night.

Tuesday will be my follow up appointment @ TTSH @ 9.45AM.

READ THIS ATIQAH!!!
Again, this means that, I wont be able to meet you in class.

Wahh.. Sad kaper?? 1 whole freaking month tak dapat meet... :((

If BF.. Don't say laa.. Dia lagi sedih.. I know.

But what to do?? I can't say no to the parents.

I myself am in great dilemma. I'm going off tonight and I still have yet to pack my things.

Gerekk kape??

-Im sorry baby I have to be away on our special day again. But Please do know that I love you still as much as the day I met you. Love me??-

2009-07-15T15:44:00.009+08:00

The very melodramatic days in the hospital.

Finally, I'm home after few days of hospitalisation in TTSH for gastritis. Okay okay, now that Im feeling better, I don't mind writing up a bit of the incidence. As said in the previous post, I had been having this gastric pain since last Wednesday. Thought that it was nothing, so I just kept mum to myself and even from the parents.

Sunday:

Sunday was supposed to be my tutoring day at Sengkang. So, early in the morning, daddy called home to wake me up. Daddy was away at work on Sunday morning, Abg was at work too and ibu was away to Johor for some matters. So, that left me alone at home. To tell the truth, I really couldn't wake up at that point of time. The gastric pain was totally a killer.

I couldnt do anything but to just cry on bed. Called mummy house. No one answered. Called the BF, but he didnt picked up either.

"Lagi dramatic aku pat katil tuh. Tergolek sane sini mcm orang nak setengah maut. I texted BF to please call me when he wakes up."

He did so a few minutes later and I was merely crying on the phone, trying to withstand the pain at the same time. After which, he asked me to wash up and says that he'll be at my place soon and send me to the doctor. BF picked me up and send me to Khatib first. Met mummy and for goodness sake! All the private clinic were closed. I swear I couldnt stand this any longer.

Then, mummy decided to bring me to her home first and gave me some gastric pills. I felt better after that and I slept till evening. BF had to leave around 2.30 as he had a soccer match over at Jurong East. Told me that he will be back after the kenduri at his house.

So, at around 7 plus, mummy brought me to the private clinic near her house. The queue was FREAKING long and I made a drama there too.

"Aku dah tak boleh tahan sakit, ape lagi?? Aku nangis lah dekat situ. Sungguh dramatic I say."

Seeing that I was really in pain, I was immediately seen by the doctor after that. He prescribed me with some gastric painkillers and 2 days MC. Not forgetting that the doc also gave me an injection called "Vascopan". He says that if this injection doesnt works and if the pain still persist, he advises me to go A&E. So, upon reaching mummy's house, I took the medicines and waited for BF to come and fetch me home. Mind you. It was a Sunday and I had Chemistry UT 2 on Monday and Recombinant DNA UT 2 on Tuesday. Sungguh risau aku. So, BF came and sent me home.

Later on, the drama started again. Right after BF send me home, I slept right away. It was only 10PM at that time. Tossing here and tossing there right until 11 plus. I admit again that this time round, the injection nor the painkillers worked. I cried laa, ape lagi. Dani saw how weak and trembling I was. So, I forced him to wake the parents up. Daddy send me to A&E TTSH immediately.

Monday Morning:

Over there, after seeing the doc, I was given fluid. The doc says that I was very weak and dry as I had not eaten anything the past few days. So, I was sent to the Observation Ward at A&E and the doc will only be back at 3am to further examine my condition. Meanwhile, I texted dearest HAALF and the BF saying that I was in A&E.

And boring2, sempat jugak aku amek gambar. Hehe. Punyelaaa rimas aku pakai mask.

*The first cucuk; right hand -- in A&E*

3AM, the doc came and looking still at my condition, there wasnt any improvement, she immediately says that I have to be admitted. I was sent to a B2+ ward, Ward 11B, Bed 51. Baba, umi, ibu and Dydy was there when I was sent to the ward. Around 4plus in the morning adelah. They told me to go to sleep and that they have to go home. Again, aku punyelaa sedih, kene stay at the hospital sorang2 lagi.

Next morning, at around 7.30Am, the doctors came and did their usual rounding. Due to the fact that my "pluck" on the right hand side was taken out, I had to had another "pluck" on the left hand. The doctor immediately says "NBM - Nothing By Mouth". Punyelaa sad aku. Dalah lapar, and I cant even have anything by mouth. And I will only have to rely on the "fluid drip" that was 24/7 on me.

*The second cucuk that I had; left hand -- In the ward*

Then, I received msg from BF around 8plus. He says that he's coming over at around 10am. Punyelaa happy aku. He did came around that timing and I was totally over the moon. Hahaha. Still NBM 'cause the doc said that I have to go for a "SCOPE". You know, putting a camera down through your throat and into the stomach. Yeah, it sounded scary I know.

Monday afternoon:

But then, there was a change of plan. At around lunch, my fluid drip was taken out and that I was told that I can eat back to normal. And I can be discharged in the evening around 6-7PM. So, I had lunch. BF suap me. So the touching. BFF, Afnan also came down. Alahai, suweet betol laa korang. The parents, uncle and grandmother was also there.

*The meal that I had before I was "allowed" to be discharged*

But then, the pain started again right after I eat. Merengkok satu mcm aku pat katil. BF, mummy sumer pat situ risau tengok aku mcm gitu. Called the doctor. And this part best, they says that wont be able to be discharged yet. So, I was asked to "fast" again (NBM) and back to the fluid drip.

As the second "pluck" was already taken out, now I have to have the third "pluck" on my hand. Wahh... Best kaper??? Tangan aku kene cucuk sane, cucuk sini. Naik bengkak sume urat aku. Most of the time in hospital, I was asleep because of the strong medicines given to me. Maaf eh semua, lau tak terlayan.

*The third cucuk that I had ; left hand*

*And BF's adidas sweater became my company throughout*

Monday night:

The night came. The doctors suspected that I had appendicts. So, I had to go for CT scan at around 9.30PM and I was also made to drink this full bottle of Oral drink. Purpose is for the visualisation of the organs in the body during the CT scan. BF saw how forceful I tried drinking the water. hehe!

Then, one by one, the family left for home. Baba asked the BF to stay with me until I go for my CT scan. He tried putting me to sleep, but I just cant. I hate being left alone in the hospital sey. The tears merely drop when he wanted to go home. Dah tak jadi si dia tuh nak balek. Aku tahu, aku boleh jadi cengeng di saat saat tengah sakit macam gini. So, I force myself to sleep and asked him to go home once Im asleep.

*I think I felt a kiss on the forehead before he left*

Not long before I go into my lalaland, the nurse woke me up saying that I have to go for my CT scan now. It was 10.10PM. I prayed so hard that please don't let it be appendicitis. 'Cause if it is, I would have to go for immediate surgery right away. My prayers were answered. Alhamdulillah.

Tuesday morning:

Spent the whole morning alone. No one came as everyone was back to work. So, I made friends with the nursing student from NYP. Mellissa and Paveerden, both female Indian nurse. So extra caring towards me. Hehe. I was given porridge for breakfast. Nice tau....

* I was so bored in the ward alone that the camera phone became my bestfriend for a while. Hehehe*

Tuesday Afternoon:

Was supposed to be discharged at 1PM. But the pain was back again, so I cant go home and wait till evening for further observation. Evening came and I was allowed to go home now. Supposedly, I had to stay in till Wednesday (which is today), but I told the doc that Im feeling much better now. So, This time round, I went home for real. Heehs. Seriously, it's so tiring lying down in the hospital bed for so long. Then, BF, mummy and ibu came to fetch me home.

Tuesday Night:

Room sweet room. I effing miss my bed so much. Ate medicines and went to sleep. Now, that was the journey of my days in the hospital.

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3oth July, back to TTSH for the scope to be done. Scope will be done at 4.30PM. And, I can only have 2 plain biscuits and clear drink water before 7AM. After that, no more eating till the scope is done. Right after scope, will have to be outpatient in the observation ward again for 4 hours. Ohh my, this is the thing that worries me most now. 'Cause if there seems to be something wrong in the stomach, I will have to be admitted in the hospital again.

Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo............ I dont want that again.......... Puhhhhleeasssasseeeeeeeeeeee.......

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To the family: Your sacrifices is really beyond any worth in world. I love you all.

To HAALF: Thank you for your support and prayer gerls. I love you all. Azzy, thank you for the consistent msg everyday. Aeisha'B, thank you for troubling yourself to ask the faci regarding my LOA. To Farahehh: Thanks for the post in ur blog. Sayang u all k??

To BF: Thank you for taking urgent leave just to take care of me. Your whole day company in the hospital just goes to show how BIG you love is for me. Thank you for the Hello Panda. ILY baby.

*I want Ben & Jerry when Im much better boleyy tak??*

To BFF, Afnan: Thankiu for coming over and visit me. You shouldn't have taken half day just to visit me you know. But nonetheless, thank you for the gift too. I love it.

To Moon: She wants to IM me every 5 hours, to check if I already had my meal. Sayang btol dia kat kite. hehe. Love you too Moon dearest.

To Atiqah: Can't wait to meet u in school too.. Hehe!

To everyone: Thank you all for ur prayers.

2009-07-11T23:33:00.008+08:00

UT revision at Aeisha'B crib right after my tutoring. I love her house. A ground floor house with the athmosphere of Ala ala kampung house gitu. Nice sey.. But sadly, I had to leave early as I was in pain. But despite that again, Cam-whoring was never a miss. You know girls. Camera's will always be our bestfriend. Heehs.

Feat Farah, Lyy and Aeisha'B.

The pain in the stomach was unbearable and I have been vomitting out every single food that I ate. But then again, I shall say Thanks to the BF for fetching me up. This time round, I could see from his eyes that he was worried sick looking at my situation. Went to his home and got help from his parents.

After the treatment, I felt much much better. The appetite is back, and I no longer vomit out any food that I eat. Alhamdulillah. And for the first time, nope second, we took the train home. Looking at the weather, I chose the train instead of the bike... =))

-Im truly touched by the way you took care of me and wanting me to get well soon. It really touches my heart. Thank you syg. ILY.-

2009-07-10T15:43:00.000+08:00

It feels so good after crying the heart out........

2009-07-09T13:30:00.006+08:00

They noticed the changes in me.

They says.....

"I'm rather quiet now"

"You spent your entire time in the room alone"

"I don't see you eating any food at home anymore"

"You are always home late at night"

"And where did you go?"

"Where's the smile in your face now??"

Yeah. True enough.

Thousands of things; running through my mind.

I just needed those time alone to pick up myself again.

Now you know, stop asking me why and why.

Can?

Ever since that day,

my appetite has been SUPER down.

I hardly eat.

Just a bite here and there.

Drink water, maybe.

Well, sometimes I can even forget to eat.

So, those gastrics acted up again.

Plus those breathlessness issues.

I'm barely surviving on those alone.

But yet,

It's normal again to me.

Then,

The leg did some walking yesterday.

Thousands of picture to indicate

the thousands of questions in my mind.

And I have to go for the freaking appointment

at TTSH today.

ALONE.

Waah.. Loner sia.

Eh, but not actually,

BFF nudge me just now.

He'll be going there too for his appt.

Heehhs..

See if we meet on the way.

kkkkkk, PPT otw.

Chalo bete.

p.s: To all those anony tag. If you have so much to say, then kindly please write your name down. Thanks ehk. Just please dont be a nuisance.

-Even if I smile, that would be a fake smile that you're seeing-

Not anymore

2009-07-07T23:00:00.001+08:00

You weren't the one that I once knew,

ANYMORE.

It's a burden to the Heart & Soul.

Am gonna let it be as it is.

'Cause it's just hurting me too much.

I knew it all along,

I was just another option to you.

You were always right,

and I was always wrong.

Perhaps, I was blind to foresee these.

Now that you want it your way,

Fine, I'll let it be as it is.

I'll make my way from here.

Just find me if you still need to.

My health - Gonna make that the least worries too.

.ENOUGH SAID.

-Back to square one-

2009-07-06T15:12:00.002+08:00

It's reacting up again,

causing the tightening in the chest.

Shortness of breath

and abnormal breathing pattern.

I'm relying on my saviour for survival.

Please just don't die on me yet.

-I really hate this part right here-

2009-07-06T10:50:00.000+08:00

"Im missing you so badly."

I have to admit that those butterflies seems to grow in numbers now whenever I think about you...

-REALLY-

2009-07-05T21:51:00.011+08:00

Home sweet home. I shall say, I didnt really had a good time in Malaysia. Bf's prepaid card was giving me a hard time. He did top up the value. Yes, he did. I received his messages and I smiled while reading it. BUT!! I can't freaking send any messages to him. It's really shuccky I tell you. Even mum, dad and nenek can see how paranoid I was. Called the StarHub operator but the freaking operator wasn't of much help either. *bleaaargh*

Seeing that I frequently make a trip to Malaysia, I think I should just activate my StarHub line for Roaming. Furthermore, daddy's always the one who has been kind enough to pay for my bills. So, why not right?? hehe!

After a week of LOA from school ~ Finally, I'll be going back to school as normal. On a lighter note!! Tutoring pay is coming soon *smile wide wide* But on a heavier note, Im needing those inhalers than I need before. The frequent breathlessness is totally not a good sign. Can anyone please scold me if you see me drinking COLD water? 'Cause I always have the tendency to forget that. Hehe!

And ouh goshh! I've not being seeing BF for a week now. Please don't "mati lemas" yet baby. Haha! I know you miss me but you gotta hold on there. Meet you on Friday for syarahan =)

The island is all wet and cold. Just what a nice weather to sleep now. =__=

-And I shall say.. It's the distance that makes our love stronger-

2009-07-03T16:22:00.005+08:00

Today's RJ Question:

"What is the one thing that fascinated you most about viruses and why?"

E-Learning done! RJ answered too. LOA over. So, back to school on Monday. Woohoo! Aneways, I gotta pack my toiletries and stuff. Sad sad. I won't be in Singapore again this weekend.

BF!! Have you bought the Happy $128 card for me?? If not, I won't be able to sms you seyy.... *pout lips* Take care everyone. And I'm going to miss my sweetheart as always.

-This is not goodbye 'cause this is starting over. And if you wanna know, I don't wanna let go.-

2009-07-03T13:55:00.004+08:00

I thought that I've long gotten over you. But the matter of fact that I'm constantly smelling that "THALLIUM" here and there makes me think of you more. This can't be true 'cause I swear you were DEAD to me!

Now tell me, if it's not you, then who??

2009-07-02T13:00:00.001+08:00

Now put all that aside, back to reality. Still on LOA. E-Learning on Recombinant DNA is NO NO fun at all. I'm barely surviving now. Serious. Tuesday was another killer E-Learning. The BioChem faci made me write a Word Document of my own understanding of the problem excluding RJ and worksheet assignment. How fun can that be? Thanks ehk faci. *grrr*

It was a Wednesday yesterday. So, there was a smile on my face. No E-Learning. Finally. So, I took all the greatest opportunity to sneak out of the house to Civic Centre. I tried breathing in and out the fresh air as much as I could. And I shall say my other companion made my day too =)

Back Home - I had the kitchen all by myself. I was craving for "ondeh-ondeh" badly.. BADLY and I mean it. So, there goes my "expedition". Make ondeh-ondeh for myself and the family. Then, BF says that he was craving for sardine roll. Sardine roll and ondeh-ondeh it is. Dydy was home and I shall say thankiu bro for helping me out. We had a great time of course.

*I eat ondeh-ondeh without any kelapa. Don't ask me why*

Bf came over around 7plus in his uniform. Ohh my ohh my... Sungguh nya mat kat hijau. haha! Had the sardine roll that was specially made for him. He suker laa sesangat of course. We were about to have dinner, when suddenly. I had the urge to go in to my room and look out at the window (just to have a check on his bike, 'cause he have the tendency to park his bike just right below my block and not the carpark). I saw someone was actually meddling with BF's bike. I swear! It pisses me off.

The whole kampung went down, including my dad,bros and Iqa. A stupid chinese driver was blind enough to spot Bf's bike and knocked it down. Gerek kaper??? Bodoh punya org! Motor sebesar besar itu pon kau tak nampak?? Nak salahkan anak-anak kau yang tengah bising dalam kereta pulak.

Ape lagi? The bike fell. Stand patah. And scrathces by the side. Aku punyelaa geraam. Adik aku dayat jgn cakap lagi. Dia memang panas baran. Mengamok dia kat situ. Yang Bf kat situ, cool aje. So, after negotioation, we get the reimburmsement. Fuuh...

Bf says.. It's a good thing. This means, he's going to pass his Class 3 License this August. I was left "HUHHH?" =__=

The other day, Bf's helmet was stolen. The weirdest thing. Both our helmets were locked by the seat. But the perompak only stole his helmet and not mine. This happened still at my area. Tssk tsskk tskkk. Kat Woodlands ni memang dah sah banyak perompak. Imagine laa, adik aku punya Motor pon kene. His bike cover head kene curik.. Ohh my!! Buat police report pon bukannya dia boley dapat alek benda tuh.

Now tell me... Haven't this people have got nothing better to do rather than stealing???

-Im off to Raffles Medical Hospital for checkup. Bubye-

2009-07-02T11:50:00.003+08:00

Make it or that's it. While others did so for their loved ones, I did it so for myself and some other reasons. I'm not trying to meddle with my personal affairs here. 'Cause it's the least that I ever wanna talk on. However, some things are just not appropriate to be kept alone.

I'm not trying to say that I'm unfortunate here. I'm still wondering and it's that wonder that keeps me going on; finding for the right answer.

Perhaps, ''those secrets'' that were unveiled were true? It kept me wondering what fate brought me to this state of mind now. I was told and I was heard.. Searching for something. Something that made my life completely LOSS and MISERABLE. It's a breather to the air 'cause I have the answers now.

You were there. And YOU controlled my life. You took away my happiness. You shred away my LIFE 'cause you were happy to see the broken lineage of mine. I was helpless still and there you were, making sure that I did everything as per told. You were ALWAYS right and my opinions were not even once bothered. I kept mum 'cause there were no one to side me.

Now that I'm free from you, don't you ever dare come close to me now. It's over and it's done with. And it's because of you, my life is full of hatred.

Though I said that Im going to act like it was all a dream, Im going to do it so from now on. Im not ever going to forsake my own happiness for others from now on. Don't blame me for that, 'cause you were the one who taught me too. Aneways, this shall be the last post as it is.

-FULLSTOP-

2009-07-02T00:57:00.004+08:00

Im going to smile

like nothings wrong,

talk like everythings

perfect, act like it's

all a dream, and

pretend it's not

hurting me.

-I'm sorry for throwing that tantrum at you. You know I never meant it too. Guide me please to be a better person. -

2009-07-01T23:42:00.004+08:00

In conjunction of our 2Months, Bf brought me to Dempsey Hill. I tell you... The Chocolate Hotfudge Brownie punyelaa sedaap. Awak!!! Kite nak lagi boleyy tak?? *giggles*

The only bike among the big big car. Haha! Don't even bother about that. Most important is that we get the Brownie =)

-It's the simple thing that touches my heart. ILY-

2009-06-30T21:44:00.002+08:00

I was left with thousands of thoughts.

It's affecting me badly and I have to admit that I'm mentally disturbed now.

Please.

Just leave me ALONE.

-And the reason is YOU-

2009-06-29T21:17:00.010+08:00

Our face.. and again.. It's our face...

And I recalled this teka teki that was given by a friend of mine.

Banyak2 fishball, fishball ape yang tak boleh dimakan??

Answer: Fishball kat pipi!!!! :P

Now look at the above pics. Does our cheeks looks like a fishball now? Nyehh heh heh!

Farahehh random texted me saying that she wanna come to my house. I was happy of course! We went lepakking on my bed.. Thankiu Farahehh for helping me in my Chemistry Problem 8. Aku sayang kau. As usual, cam-whoring was a must must. We ate then Farah had to go somewhere. U made my day today babe =)

At least, the first day of LOA was not a bad one. And I'm counting on the days... 6 more days to go people! 6 more days.... Woooh!

P.S: Not to worry people. I'm not infected with H1N1. I'm virus free, for now. Just so happen that a classmate of mine was infected with that, then the whole class had to be on LOA (Leave of Absence). I'll always pray for your speedy recovery. Get well soon team mate =)

2009-06-29T18:06:00.004+08:00

It's Wirni Darla Birthday today...

And...

BFF Afnan Zulhusmi Birthday...

Both turns 21 this year.. And I wishes both of you a very happy birthday, enjoying your day with your loved ones by your side.

And I texted Nan early in the morning wishing him a delicate day throughout. But then, his reply was that, both his parents were out working today so he has to wait for a later birthday celebration. Sad kaper??

He was online the whole day and yeah.. He bacame my victim! Not literally a victim, but rather a companion for a good chat. haha!! I miss getting free KFC chickens from him. That explains the

fishball cheeks in me.

That is why... I'm always a "Yana bambam" to BFF.

And!! I'm finding for a good chickys out there for BFF. Any takers girls? Hahaha!!

2009-06-28T00:05:00.000+08:00

Leave Of Absence for a week and will only be back to School on the 6th of July. I pray that the classmate of mine who was hospitalised for H1N1 for a speedy recovery. Get well soon team mate!!

As so, Im not having a good time here because the Wireless connection at my house is giving me a real pain in the neck. I swear!! I can scream at the top of my lungs anytime from now!

2009-06-25T21:45:00.004+08:00

JB and movie spree with the kecohrables W56P was AWESOME!! We made it to City Square for Transformers 2. Two thumbs up! Fantastic movie. But before that, we head down to Kotaraya where we had our sumptuos spread of food. The "chendol" was extremely delicious. Fuhh! It's extremely a must must eat for me. Azzy knew me too well and wells, she would always be my number one victim. Nyehh hehh hehh.

Then again, we went Chillax at Starbucks. Azzy got some Apple crumble where this joke on "kayu manis" came about.

Farahehh: Mcm aku, kayu dan manis.

Now get the joke? I tell you. Her expression were extremely expressionless and it was totally hilarious. The four of us just couldn't stop laughing at her sardine-ness. Next Wednesday, we're planning on study group cum swimming in the evening. Any takers?? *winks*

-Toodles-

2009-06-25T13:51:00.004+08:00

Lab session for Biochemistry. An experiment to compare the Absorbance value of Salivary Amylase and Commercial Amylase. Whose Salivary Amylase, it shall be a wonder k? "_"

Right Atiqah??? Hehe!!

Meet my FB Quiz Kaki partner, Atiqah!!! Woohoo.. Tuesday's lesson was never a bore this time round as I initiated for some Web-camwhoring session with dearest Qaahh...

Virgin attempt of duo pics together but nonetheless, we managed to sneak our giggles from the faci. Both pink-pink in colour and we did nothing but laughing our ass out the whole day =)

-And I shall be back again. Toodles-

2009-06-24T22:55:00.003+08:00

I wanna put a FULLSTOP on all this. It's really hurting me.

Big Girls Don't Cry Right?? I'm trying to.

-I'm physically and mentally drained out of energy-

2009-06-22T23:26:00.002+08:00

Me and my stone headed. I know. It's just me. Fullstop k? I hope that I'm not being a nuisance to any party yet. I'm starting back my SILAT training as per tomorrow and that's my final decision. 3 freaking months of waiting and I'm very sure that I'm ready for light training now.

I hope you know. .And I really hope. .

-Seriously, it's an agony to suit oneself to others. Bye.-

2009-06-17T19:47:00.006+08:00

Eye pain - Staring at the screen for too long.

Back pain - Sitting for too long.

Leg pain - Sitting for too long which causes the numbness.

But I don't mind all those pain and sitting in the library alone, as long as the MCG expenses claims are done. Finally, alhamdulillah. It's done after working on it for hours. Weehoo!!

And.. My baby is under service.. Please HP Service Centre... Do service and handle my lappy with care aites..

Apart from that, tutoring was funaairr today. After tutoring, play play with the cat. Then my student's nenek had a sharing story session with me. She even cooked mee goreng mamak for me and not forgetting the kuih bakar that she baked. Looking back that she's a Pakistani by blood, fuhh I tell you. Soodaaap laa masakan dia. Yummy yummy.

And finally, Lyy has slowly started on her PP. If not now, then when kan?? Right right?? Not forgetting yesterday's incidence, I must congratz myself and ATIQAH =) for having the strong faith to still continue staying in class despite the very very high temptation of cabot-ing!! Right Atiqah?? Also despite the screwed up presentation, we still survived the whole thingy!! Kan kan kan??? *jumps jumps*

Btw!!! I have this freaking BELO-NESS issue with Azzy!!! Thanks ehk babe... Terserlah lah ke-begokan nya kite... Waahahahaha!! Sungguh laa bacin sey!! Nonetheless, the belo-ness issue at least accompanies me throughout the lonely times in the library =)

And extra hp with a Starhub prepaid card from him to me. Just especially for me to contact him when I'm away from Singapore this whole weekend. Sweet kan?? Fetch me up from the Civic just to give me that lil surprise. Thank youuuu sayang!!!! ILY!

That is why....

2009-06-15T21:14:00.003+08:00

Those nerves are killing me again. The blue black is slowly reappearing again and I swear it’s hurting me even when I’m sitting quietly. What more walking right? =__= People have been telling me how “dead” my leg is. Even mum says it looks so cacat now. The deformed toe is done and nothing can bring it back to its original shape unless surgery is done.

&%!$*#@!!!

Back to school today. Back to PBL-ing. Back to pecah kepale otak. Apart from that, I swear I swear!!! RP’s network system is in a total disaster today. Lemme highlight that again. TOTAL DISASTER! The internet connection went haywire. MSN got problem. The electric supply in my class went DEAD just like that. And my lappy went automatically off because the battery was happily residing in my bag. And the whole class had to change class because even after an hour of waiting, the current still did not appear. THANKS eh RP!! You really suck my blood today. *Shucccky*

And there’s an asshole trying to spam all of the Selatra’s tagboard. Such an asshole ‘cause you are seriously making me wanna smack your SMELLY face! Do it again and dun be sorry if I come smacking your bloody asss!

-Make my blood go upstairs only-

2009-06-11T23:48:00.010+08:00

The pain was excruciating and the swolleness gets worse. This seriously causes the untolerable pain whenever I wanna walk. Thus, mum decided to bring me to see the specialist at Raffles Medical Hospital. BUT!! The worse has yet to come.

After the X-Ray was done, good news! The specialist said that the fractured toe was healing well. So, what causes this pain now? After much inspection, the doc then derived that there's another case that's acting up now. It's the "Mortons' Neuromo".

And the specialist gave me some task to do. To do a read up on what's Mortons' Neuromo is. And below, is what I've got basically on the net.

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"Mortons' Neuromo" is an enlarged nerve that usually occurs in the third interspace, which is between the third and fourth toes.

Problems often develop in this area because part of the lateral plantar nerve combines with part of the medial plantar nerve here. When the two nerves combine, they are typically larger in diameter than those going to the other toes. Also, the nerve lies in subcutaneous tissue, just above the fat pad of the foot, c lose to an artery and vein.

Above the nerve is a structure called the deep t ransverse metatarsal ligament. This ligament is very strong, holds the metatarsal bones together, and creates the ceiling of the nerve compartment. With each step, the ground pushes up on the enlarged nerve and the deep transverse metatarsal ligament pushes down. This causes compression in a confined space.

Symptoms:

Tingling, burning, or numbness, Pain.

The progression of a Morton's ne uroma often follows this pattern:
The symptoms begin gradually. At first they occur only occasionally, when wearing narrow-toed shoes or performing certain aggravating activities.
The symptoms may go away temporarily by massaging the foot or by avoiding aggravating shoes or activities.
Over time the symptoms progressively worsen and may persist for several days or weeks.
The symptoms become more intense as the neuroma enlarges and the temporary changes in the nerve become permanent.

Treatment:

One of them is Injection therapy. If there is no s ignificant improvement after initial treatment, injection therapy may be tried.

Surgery may be considered in patients who have not received adequate relief from other treatments. Generally, there are two surgical approaches to treating a neuroma the affected nerve is either removed or released. Your foot and ankle surgeon will determine which approach is best for your condition.

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All in all, today's visit alone cost me nearly $300. Fuhhh!!! Berpeluh aku sekarang. And and.. Injection was given. The pain is rather more excruciating now. Haizz. And the specialist gave me an open date for the next appointment. To see the progress of the swollen nerve. And on a heavier note, he says, there might be a possibility of me having to go for the surgery if the swollen does not subside. And this will cost me nearly $5-6K for the surgery itself without adding the subsequent consultation fees.

Hokays, I'm absolutely getting paranoid here 'cause I'm feeling that I'm being such a great burden to my parents. :(

Not only that, the deformation of the fractured toe is done. Means, I'm going to have that deformed toe for the rest of my life. Shucccks!!!!!! I'm gonna hate this even more. Enough said, I'm getting to bed soon.

-It's just too much for today. Toodles-

2009-06-09T01:40:00.002+08:00

I'll be on a hiatus for sometime. But.... I promise I'll be back soon. Toodles!!

2009-06-04T23:14:00.004+08:00

*click to enlarge*

Looks disgusting? Looks cacat?

Yeah, I know. The right foot with the fractured toe have yet to heal still. This 7th June, it marks exact 3months of the day the toe got fractured. Worst still. I don't know why, but all of a sudden, the whole right foot was swollen. Try comparing the right feet with the left one. There's so much difference lah. Haizz!! I get even disgusted when looking at it. Not only that, this made my walking extremely slow 'cause the swollen thingy is causing too much of pain whenever pressure is added on to it. So, this results to me, "TEMPANG".

Gerek kaper?? Ya.. Even mummy says that my leg is cacat now. Haiz! What a luck. I'm getting irritated looking at the condition of my toe now. It really hinders me from a lot of things. Boring boring...Looks like silat is still a long long way to go..

Aku bingit! Aku bosan!!

-K bye-

2009-06-01T23:31:00.003+08:00

It hurts. And it really hurts. Sometimes, I just wished that I can be more wary before I speak. I know. It's me and my stupid mouth again. But I didn't mean it either. What more can I say?

-When the tears starts flowing, it will just flow-

2009-06-01T21:09:00.002+08:00

Boys before Flowers. Hokays! Finally I'm getting the hooked on Korean Drama's after those busy periods in school. The bestest remedy that can get me hooked to it for as long as I want. Kak Long even had to force me to eat 'cause she said that I didn't even remember to eat once the eyes sets on the screen.

What to do? Kim Hyun Joong is merely addictive to the eyes =) I know, I know.. He's just so addictive.. Nyehh hehh hehh!

And cuzzie Hilmi and Adli was here today. They went "picnic-ing" outside the house together with kak long and Dydy. Tssk tssk tssk. Sorry I didn't join you guys. The korean drama is totally addictive. And now, Full House 2 is coming soon. I'm so waiting for it! Wee!!

-Back to the drama again. Tada!-

2009-06-01T01:08:00.005+08:00

Both of us were extremely shocked when we bumped each other at TRCC on Friday.. We had the same brooch. With the same style of outfit on that particular day. Flowery dress and white top to go with, we looked almost the same. However, this was not the first time it happened. Many times of it during our attachment at A*STAR Biopolis a year ago. Attached to the same department, our colleagues there even confused us a few times. =) Memories working there will always be loved. Right Ayu??

And on Friday, marks the start of the 2 week holidays. Microbiology Lab-session was none other than cam-whoring =)

Continuation of cam-whoring again with Farahehh once back in class =)

-Dipping kuih baulu with HOT HOT Milo at this hour. Yummy!-

2009-05-28T20:44:00.009+08:00

Currently listening to & on repeat mode:

Sebelum Cahaya - LETTO

P.S: I'm totally absurb in love with the song :P

Fact 1: Cramping the brain with all the facts on BioChemistry for tomorrow's UT. Ouhh man.. I'm dying, I'm dying, I'm dying... Please save me!!

Fact 2: Facebook quizz-ing is loved. Totally addictive. Totally loved. But... Atiqah had to spot me doing that during class. Perangai kentot abes.. LOL =)

Fact 3: My student, Muhd Harith Syafiq had two kitty.. Aww!! Cutie cutie sey.. It's called "GOTHIC" and "MARLET". Gothic totally reminds me of McKay.. Except for that Gothic is exceptionally smaller than McKay. And both Gothic and Marlet were actually happily playing with my bag when I was busy tutoring.. Cute or wad?? Okok.... I shall take a pic of the two kitties on my next tutoring.. And and.... I miss McKay... That picture below shows.. A candid pic captured when McKay wanted to kiss me.. Cute cute???

Fact 4: Liyana is HOME ALONE!! Borring nyer.. Dad, mum and Iqa out to JB. JB again? Haiyo.. Bro Capek out working. Bro Buntal out to school. Bro Dydy?? I dunnoe.. MIA. So, that's it. I'm freaking alone now =(

Fact 5: Chocolate and junkies are running low. Bro Capek even threatened to finish up all my snacks if I don't bother to eat them up. DARN U! Try doing that and I'm gonna strangle you seyy!!! Isshhh! Bolehh buat marah tauu...

Fact 6: Sms-ed Dad to replenish my chocolate stocks.. =) Dad says... "OK"... I loike!!

Fact 7: What were the weakness that you discovered about yourself today - Today's RJ question. Weakness?? Grr.. How can I even spot my own weaknesses?? Let alone mistakes?? Right??

Fact 8: Ustaz will be away for three weeks for coaching Umrah. So that means, there won't be any Majlis Ilmu for 3 weeks. So again that means.. 3 weeks I won't be meeting Mama (bf's mum)? Hmm... Then, this also means.. I'm going to miss her cooking..

Fact 9: I'm happily crunching NIPS chocolate now.. =)

Fact 10: Lab session for Microbiology tomorrow. So that means..... *jeng jeng jeng*

Cam-whoring session again.. Perangai kentot lagi!!

Fact 11: Daniel Amorei Birthday today and Fiiez Birthday last two day. Happy Birthday Darlingss.. And I managed to get a pic of them both. Ouh.. What a nice combo..

Fact 12: I'm missing my Mr LOVE... Alotss!! And really alotss...

-Hokays bubye. I'm tired!! 12 facts for now-

2009-05-27T01:40:00.004+08:00

I love the way you love me

I love the way I can talk to you

And say what's on my mind

I never have to look away

Or keep a thing inside

Tears fill my eyes when you're not around

Or when you just don't care

But I know in my heart you will do what's right

For me, you will always dare

Material things will never matter

As long as I have you

You make every day that passes

So much easier to get through

My worries disappear when you're around

No thoughts of pain or doubt

I feel your love when you hold me close

And kiss me if I pout

I don't care what they are talking about

All I care for is you

I'll do anything to show you my love

If that's what I have to do

I love you for everything that you are

Not what you promise to be

I know you can't see why or how

But.... You're the most important thing to me

For nothing else matter as long as I’m with you…

2009-05-25T21:55:00.001+08:00

Babysitting Iqa today.. That's the why for the home early... And this was what happened.. Cam-whoring using my webcam.. LOL!! My one and only niece.. Cute laaa sey!

Andand.. Chemistry UT was A-Okay.. I can do it. Alhamdulillah. Tomorrow pulak, Recombinant DNA UT. Okay!! That's my favourite.. Weehoo!!

And all these was practically out of boredom and curiousity... Aku suke Facebook :-P

P.S to the BF: See, didn't I told you that I was madly in love with you?? Even the quiz says so.. *kening naik naik*

And bayyyybehhhh....

-UT revision on the way. GOODNIGHT World!-

2009-05-24T22:13:00.003+08:00

Hohkays.. I shall take back my words. I'm just contented. Bf gave a surprised call and he came over for dinner at my home today. I love it =) Such a waste that u don't eat pengat pisang. Next time I cook that, you watch I eat only hokays? *giggles*

And the day was ended with riddles from him which he got it from his friend..

"Banyak2 'mee', 'mee' aper hitam?"
"Banyak2 binatang, binatang ape yang jual kuih?"

Sape pandai, try jawab k???

-You'll always be the reason for the smile in my face-

2009-05-24T13:54:00.003+08:00

Passing through the phases of life. Contentment and disapointment. Sometimes, I just wished that neither all of these was a regret to me. Learning and applying it. It's totally two different things. Wonder.. Do you even feel what I feel? I know, I couldn't just possibly have it all. I'm clueless. I just wished that I could be the best for you. But again, I know that I can never be better for you. I'm dumb strucked yet again. I've done my best and I gave my best. Just appreciate it. Fullstop.

Can someone please teach me how to smile again???

"I just wished that you could have understood me better when I know at times it was me who started it all along..It's just that..I wanted the best! That's all.....I'm sorry"

P.S: I'll be on a hiatus for sometime. Readjusting everything and I'll be uncontactable through HP. Don't even bother to find me k? You'll know how to find me if you really need me to.

-Chalo beteh-

2009-05-24T00:40:00.002+08:00

"Patience character"

You once told me that no matter what hardship, we will go through it together. Vividly and still clear, those words still lingers in my mind. I know it wasn't easy for you to accept the problem that you are going through now. It hurts. Yess I know. But it hurts me more seeing you being hurt. Hang on there please?

Be PATIENT. 'Cause patience is virtue.

And I give you my word.

"I will always be there for you. Through ups and downs, I'm sure we will go through this together."

-Love,Lyy-

2009-05-23T13:17:00.004+08:00

MCG Welcome TEH was laughters all the way. Thank you all for coming and congratz to all the committee members =)

And on Friday, terserlah lah ke-begoknya aku. This is what happens when you forget to check your webmail. It was the first Lab session for Microbiology and yesss! I forgot to bring lab coat. Lucky, thnx to Moon! She troubled herself just to bring a lab coat for me. Sayang kamu many2 Moon!!!

Preparing of LB agar, pour plate and spread plate method. So the borr-ing.. I dunnoe how many times I've did that during my ITE years and attachment to A*STAR, Biopolis. Haha! When faci was out of sight, this was what happens to us.... *chuckles*

"Satu-satu perangai sey! Dalaa buat lab dengan sandal. Perangai kentot abes.."

-Klaa.. GTG. BYE-

2009-05-21T21:13:00.003+08:00

Aku baru nak post.. Baru nak ckp ni....

I hope that this time round I don't have to handle any more of this ANONYMOUS, PASSERBY and U Dun Wanna Know thingy. It's not scary but it'sjust a lil irritating. Again, perhaps this bunchie of people or sotongs have yet to understand the fact on ....

"My blog, My say. Kalau tak suke, berambos"

Paham? Understand? Understooded??

Like hello people, this passerby and anonymous thingy is so outdated laa. Have an issue with me, PLEASE enter your name with the freaking "CAPS LOCK"on. That might sounds better and perhaps too, your doubts could be answered.But do take note, your concerns are my least and the very least concern.

Paham?? Bagos!

And now.. Another sotong on the way. Grrrrrr! Pandai betol kau carik aku..Hmmmph! Whatever laa ehk...

-Keep on tagging sotongs! Chalo beteh!-

2009-05-21T14:30:00.000+08:00

Welcome TEH today exclusive for MCG members. Be sure to be there in your Earthly colours outfit.. Ape lagi? Jangan tak datang, datang tau..

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And here's to the Part 2 of Farahehh Birthday.. Which took place during our first meeting just now...

Dearest HAALF in the house...

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Ohh... And On a heavier note. Samsung F480 is giving me hard time. It's irritating. Hokays? Get it? Still don't get it?? It simply means that ...

"HP ku mintak kene campak dalam longkang. PAHAM?"

And today itself.. I've been bumping into the cuttie hottie guy .. The guy whose my classmate for every Microbiology class. Ouh wells, it was Farah who gave him that name and ever since the day I went into class with Nursing uniform for PPP Encore, he has been calling me a "Nurse". Nyeh hehh hehh... Farah jgn jealous ehk :P

And.. today's problem is all on PRIMERS. So dry.. That's the reason for the post at this timing. And and.... I miss my MR RON!!! =(

-Back to PPT. GOODBYE-

2009-05-21T00:06:00.002+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday Farahehh =)

Yeah, the three of us met up for a lil chit chatting session plus a surprise birthday for Farah. We went lepakking at Esplanade... And I knew it.. She'd smell the rats too soon.. Nyehh nyehh nyehh :P

Red or pink. That's the theme colour for that day. And the camera did a lot of takings today. I love it =)

Hugss for the birthday girl.. Plus some "belo" faces on the way..

And the day ended with smiles and non-stop laughing.. Next trip up.. Chocolate Italian Cake with Ice cream.. TBC.. Any takers?? Haha!!! I know Farah won't be able to resist that... :P

-UT revision on the way. Goodnight World-

2009-05-19T18:50:00.004+08:00

It's been 3 solid weeks and I still have yet to recover from cough, sorethroat and flu. This month alone, I have been seeing the docs for 3 times and each visit nearnig cost me to $20 bucks. Like for real, kocek aku dah nak berlobang sey. *grrrrr*

Today's visit, 2 bottles of cough syrup, plus one set of full course antibiotics, plus lozenges, plus paracetemol and flu pills. Damn. I'm seriously gonna hate this 'cause it's just me.. Not to eat the medicines unless being forced to. Hissssh!!

And those splitting headaches is driving me nuts again. GOODBYE people.

I'm sorry....

2009-05-18T11:00:00.003+08:00

The Chocolate Italian cake at "Spaghetti Too, IMM" was very the yummy. Waduhh... Tak cukup lau dimakan sekali.. Mcm nak lagi seyy.. Tapi... Bf ckp..

"Makan sekali tak cukup, tapi lau makan dua kali, mesti muak..."

And... In conjunction of our anni.... Bf got a full set of aroma therapy with strawberry oil just to be placed in my room. How lovely. How can I express... That... It was his simple thoughts and gifts that touches my heart even more.

The room was all sweet smelling all night and I prayed that the ants won't come biting me when in lala land... *chuckles*

And Mama invited me to her adik's kenduri @ CCK yesterday... Atok, Nenek & Uncle (bf's side) was all extremely nice.. I love them =)

And on another note, Baba has been extremely caring for Bf.. Which I dunnoe why and I wonder why.. In an event... Baba even asked me to pass the passport form to Bf.. To be filled in immediately so that Bf can follow us to JB every Friday night after Majlis Ilmu @ Darussalam with Bf family.. How sweet is that??? *giggles*

And.... PP Scope finally accepted. Alhamdulillah..Thank you Mummy, BF, Farah and Uncle for your help =)

2009-05-17T01:32:00.003+08:00

Bf brought me to Mad Jack Cafe for dinner. Nice food and ambience. Fantastic! I love it. Then we went lepaking at "Gelombang Henderson". Ribut I say.. Punyelaa ramai orang.. Haha! Almaklomlah, Saturday lah katekan. While sitting, Bf suddenly craves for an ice-cream. He wanted to have one at Swensen's Changi or the one that's near the town area. I say tak payah sudah.. We'll go there other time jelaa. So, in the end, we had Ben & Jerry @ ESSO.

"Kewl or wad?? Duduk makan ice cream tepi jalan? OK kan..?"

Ahh... Ni interesting...

When kite da sampai kat bawah blok ku, tak tau laah kenape.... Aku punye miang, voice out lah nak try bawak motor dia. LOL!! And Rase rase, ade dalam 2 tahun ku tak bawak motor ni.

So ape lagi.... Aku punye macam paham.. Cube laa untuk start engine.. Bf dah pesan jangan tengok bawah, jangan nervous, lepaskan clutch pelan2.. So, Bile dah masuk Gear 1, bergerak kan motor tuh? Ape lagi?? Nervous laa sey aku.. Sekali..... terlepas clutch pulak! Ape lagi?? Stalled laa motor dia. Hahaha!!

Then I told him...

"Oklahh u.. Setakat disini jelah practical I for today... *giggles*"

Hahaha!! Aku nyer lesen motor yang blom lagi tercapai rasenye boleh buat simpan dalam musuem jelaa..

-Klah, katil pon dah memanggil nie. BYE-

clueless...

2009-05-14T22:55:00.004+08:00

I dunnoe what to feel.

I dunnoe what to say.

I dunnoe why and

I still dunnoe why...

The X-Ray shows that the fractured toe is healing at a very slow pace. I was given approximately another 2 more months for the full recover of my toe. WTH???!

"No running or any vigorous exercise for these two months - as per told by doc"

I can't stand this no more. It's such a pain to the heart thinking that getting back on the grounds of martial arts was still a long way to go. I really hate this part right now.

And bf.. Thank you for sacrificing your half-day work just to fetch me from school and send me to the hospital. Appreciate that lots baby

~*It's just too tiring thinking about silat.. Bye! ~*

Lyy.Farah.Aeisha'B

2009-05-14T00:14:00.003+08:00

P.S: Someone literally spotted the "hidung kembang"!! Ouhh man......

Hokays, and I just committed a crime. Like literally clicking the right button and save these pics and merely post it in my blog.

"Lame sgt nak tunggu gambar dari Farah... Ampunkan patik.. Harap jangan marah ehk.. :P"

Naturally, I'm beginning to accept the fact that I was just a stop and hi-bye thingy. Mummy told me to gradually let those feelings loose and don't let that bother me too much. I did as per told and I just hope that I was wrong.

I was at bf's home again today.. And Mama questioned me this before I go off..

"Jumaat ni datang rumah untuk pegi blaja kat masjid lagi tak?"

Heehs.. Bf was smiling away.. Hohkays! I think I got what he meant.. The amber light is slowly changing to green light.. *chuckles*

And.. I'm praying that the X-Ray that I'm going to do tomorrow shows that the fratured toe is healing well.... So that, I can get a faster head start on silat.... Hmm.....

-and the bed is calling calling.. BYE!-

Contented =)

2009-05-12T22:54:00.003+08:00

And I'm contented... I just wanna smile and smile and smile...

Cause... Life is just too short too be sad.. Am I right??

P.S: Smile at me and I'll double my smile at you =)

You'll always be the reason for the smile in my face bf..

2009-05-11T10:50:00.000+08:00

Dedication to both my Mum...

Umi and Ibu respectively...
Happy Mother's Day..

I think it's still not too late for the wishes rite?? Again.. I wanna tell you both how much you mean to me and how much I love you mum...

You were there when I cry.. You were there when I smile.. You were there when Im sick.. You were there every single time by my side..

You are my mum, but you are also my bestfriend.. Without you, I would be a no one in this world..

ILY mum!! Not forgetting to Mama (Bf's mum).. Happy Mother's Day... And thank you for the spaghetti Mama.. It was nice and I love it =)

2009-05-09T14:15:00.000+08:00

*Blowss the dust off*

Hectic schedule up the calendar and that explains the reason why this blog seems not up to date.... All I can say now is that... Life is much more meaningful now.. *smiless wide wide* Nyehh hehh hehh =)

So yeah... Bf and I have decided... Every Friday will be our meet up for Majlis Ilmu at Masjid Darussalam together with his family.. And Sunday will be as usual, Majlis Ilmu at Masjid Assyakirin together with my family.. And we both agrees that.. It's much more meaningful to spent our time together that way =) Which I really find peace at the end of the day..

And and..... sick Liyana coming the way.. I've been having coughing, sorethroat and cold for the past few days... The doc says that it's the tonsils that's reacting again and the temperature seems to be fluctuating up and down again and again. Despite that, Bf mother's was kind enough to feed me cough syrup last night when she saw that I have been coughing since I dunnoe when.. geee!! Shy me...

And.....Remembering of my last weekend together with bf... We reached just in time to capture those beautiful moments of sunset by the Upper Seletar resevoir. I swear, the view was magnificent and the atmosphere was radiant . And it was lucky me, remembering that my Canon Ixus was still residing in my bag, so....the camera did some snapshots. =)

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And looking at my past(ssss) weekends.. It's surprising that I have actually danced through the whole of Singapore. Not literally danced but riding through those places on his greeny KR... We've been.....

To Henderson Waves,

To Labrador Park,

To Hortpark,

To Dempsey Hill,

To East Coast Park,

To West Coast Park,

To Marina Barrage,

To Tanjung Rhu by the Singapore River,

To Movie marathon..

... and my latest newest HOTSPOT addiction.... !!!!!!
The Keppel Bay.. I swear it's a lovely place to hang out and chill... Especially to those people who needs a timeout from the world, Keppel Bay would be the greatest remedy... It's night view is almost the same as Henderson Waves except for that, there's an open sea and lots of yatchs to accompany it...

And....Now.. Remembering about my meet-ups with bf's family.. As stated, kak Ngah (bf's sis) wanted to meet me..So, we had dinner at Secret Recipe on the 5th of May...Together with mama and Kak Long..

"pecah perut aku.. Asek ketawa jer bile dgn Kak Long & kak Ngah" *chuckles*

Guess... That would be all for now... And off to meet Bf soon... Toodless!!

Now that I have you, I won't ever let you go....

Alhamdullilah...

2009-05-02T03:22:00.007+08:00

Alhamdulillah.... PPP Encore 2008 went well.. With all those intensive trainings that we went through, I believed that our hard work was paid off... Despite my very first virgin attempt in the area of stage drama, I feel proud of myself.. Indulging myself in a new scope apart from silat.

But first of all, I have to thank the PK-ians for giving me this chance to explore myself to a new challenge. Despite the incidence where I fractured my toe 2 months ago, I still plucked up the courage to come down for training.. And I still believe that, it was all worth while...

Walaupon berkali-kali aku kene tegur dengan Tuan Director untuk project my voice, aku tetap masih bersemangat untuk memperjuangkan seni... Cheyy cheyy cheyy!! MP!! *giggles*

To all the cast and crews.. I really love working with you guys... Now that there ain't anymore intensive training, I will absolutely feel lost this coming week )=

And now... Let the pics do the talking k????? For more pics, just come to me... I'll be at your honour to sending-sending the pics to you all.... =)

Before the show.....

Venue: Backstage

After the show..... Thanks to all who came... Your presence and support were all deeply appreciated by us...

And.. This is my mummy... Mummy was rather proud of me.. Repeatingly telling me that she's glad that at least her passion and love for drama, acting actually do "runs" in my blood... Nyehh hehh heehhh!! Thanks for coming down... ILY mum!!!

Truthfully and honestly... PPP Encore was such a great new experience for me..... I'm so going to miss this.........

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And after the show.. Baby fetched me from school.. Obviously, he was extremely shocked and almost cant recognise me with the make-ups on.. Haha!! I was stared for a long time without even a blink of eye.. So, later on we had dinner at my home and headed to Tanjung Rhu.. Sitting by the bricks of Singapore River, enjoying the atmosphere with stars and moon as our company... And I swear!!!!

As I was staring at the sky.... I saw a SHOOTING STAR!!!! Right exactly at 0130hours.. Green-green in colour..

Betape gembiranya aku hanya TUHAN ajer yang tahu...

I dunnoe how fairytale it is.. But I did make a wish =) And it was 2.15AM when we realised that we have been sitting there for hours..

And in the meantime.. Faizal Afro called me.. Hahahaah!!!!! Mintak maaf punya mintak maaf pasal dia tak dapat datang for the show.. Takpe bro, like what u've promised... U OWE me a lunch date... hahahahahaha!!!!

And the day was ended with double the triple of smiless in my face..... =)

To once who was my sunshine...

Thank you for coming down. That msg from you before the show did gave me some strength. Even though it's all in the past, you troubled all your way just to support me. I appreciate that. Thank you ex-sunshine...

Thank you Moon!!!

2009-04-25T12:48:00.004+08:00

The "love" bracelet was a gift from Moon. Apart from the fact that the other Selatrans girls received one too, Mine was exceptionally a pair to Moon =)

And I realli love it a lot...

On Thursday, we had MCG comm meeting. That's when I came to know that Moon specially bought the same bracelet as hers. And not only that, we happen to be wearing the same top from "Cotton On"... The same one that we bought at SSC but of a different colour....

Heehs... Great mind thinks alike... ILY darlz..... =)

Never I knew that you would always be there for me.

Like I told you before,

It's time for me to be loved again and give you the chance to be loved.

For everything that you've said,

Will always be kept deep inside my heart =)

Azzy 24th Birthday =)

2009-04-25T12:36:00.002+08:00

Its Azzy's 24th Birthday on the 23rd of April 09..

The plans was still carefully planned despite me and Farah being in the same class as Azzy on that particular day.. Together with the help from Haniz and Aeisha, Alhamdulillah.. Everything seems to go as planned...

Hope you love that birthday surprise from us and HAALF will always love you... =)

The phone prank

2009-04-22T00:11:00.003+08:00

08.58AM, Phone rang. Name "Kak Sa'edah". Yeah, it's Kak Sa'edah my idol, the National silat player. Ahuh.. And I was telling myself, Kak Edah called me early2 in the morning, nak ape ehk?? So yeah, picked up the phone...And the conversation goes something like this...

Caller: Hi, boleh saye bercakap dengan Liyana.

Me: Ye, ni Liyana bercakap.

Caller: Saya dari Warna FM. Awak dekat sekolah eh?

Me: (caller ID name Kak edah, how come its from Warna?) Ye, saye kat class ni skrg.

Caller: Aik? Saye ingatkan awak start sekolah jam 10??

Me: Ouh, itu untuk Year 3 jer...

Bla bla blaaa..... Till the part....

Caller: Ni Kak Zurah laah..

Cheyyyy!! I've been punked early in the morning. Nice try Kak Zurah! Hurhur! Yeah, then I was told that both Kak Edah and Kak Zurah were in RP.. In RP??? Waduh... Yeah, it was said that they had some assignment to complete.. And they said that RP is a nice environment to study in...

And yeah.. I made a visit to the Library during second breakout and truthfully, I was extremely excited to meet them... Woohooo =) Chatted for a while, one last hug to both of them before I'm off for lunch...

Me to both of them: Call me as Warna again whenever ur in RP kays???? *giggles*

Hahahaa..... Sayang korang dua.. Aku kene FOOL laa today :P

2009-04-19T02:13:00.002+08:00

I had a date with my dearest HAALF today!!

*pics to be uploaded, but not any sooner? Heehs*

Okays.. And I'm completely drained out of energy for now..

And Mummy.. I'm so soorryy..

It was so clumsy of me to lose the brooch that you bought for me..

I know I know.. I'm sad too =(

Till I'm back..

A shoutout to my RP peeps!!!!!!

Tomorrow will be the last Sunday of the 3Months Holidays before school reopens!

Nyehhh heehhh hehhhh....

P.S: Suddenly, I'm craving for popcorns!! ;P

Ahuh

2009-04-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

When the doc says that my fractured toe was healing, I smiled =). But his later response was that.. It's healing slowly. So, he gave me another a month or so to see the full condition of my fractured toe. Above, is the excuse shit for me from a wearing a shoe. And he constantly reminded me...

"Absolutely, no running Miss Liyana"

Okays.. Indeed I was laughing to myself.. 'Cause I did try to run just to catch a bus. Ouchh..

I was just wondering..... Does this excuse shit even approve me from entering the LAB when school reopens?? I wonder.. Hmm...

And to think again, it's less than a week before school reopens... I bet.. I'll be busy adjusting myself again to the new class environment and PK intensive training before the actual date. Okays... Im getting paranoid here when Im typing this down.. Grrrr!!!

And looking back at the condition of my toe... It looks like I still have a long long way to go before I can even start my Silat training. I know this sounds cheeesyy... But I'm absolutely missing kicking those punching bags and wearing SENI SILAT REPUBLIC uniform. Haiz...

I hope you love that sardine roll... and....

Let the stars be our BESTFRIEND =)

2009-04-13T21:59:00.004+08:00

Last but not least.... Some of our MCG members went to ITE College East today to support Dharma Rhepfuse... Congratz girls, you guys did a nice show =)

And and.... Nasi Ayam Galore @ Cafe 1 is a must must... =) Although the forks were out of sight, I still enjoyed my Black pepper Chicken rice.. Wee!!!

Oklaa.. I guess, that's all for now.. 5 post in one day.. And Im off to bed.. PK training will be at 10AM tomorrow =)

Toodlez, LIYANA =)

Farrian Birthday Chalet on 11/4/09

2009-04-13T21:50:00.003+08:00

**Daniel, Zara, Me and Ryan**

At Downtown East Chalet....

Our last meet-up was on 11 May 08.. A tennis session... Kekek I say... And to think again, that was ages ago.. Extremely excited to meet them and although it was just a short meet up, I lovverrr it alot.. All of us, shares the same fate.. Being thrown away by

"this one person whom we once used to love alot"

Hmm.. Kinda long story but but... Yeah, we lost a brother, but we still remained as friends.. And I hope that we can continue on our friendship...

Za or Ryan, please plan an outing soon for the four of us kays??? I miss you guys......

MCG Outing Dated 8/4/09

2009-04-13T21:20:00.001+08:00

MCG Comm had an outing.. We had deserts at Swensen's CWP.. To our surprised, they actually had student promo. 2 ice-cream/sundae for the price of $9++ when one sundae itself cost nearing $9...

Those at Swensens: Ain, Nada, Fit, Me, Kak Ain, Wan & Hilmi

When Nada, Fit, Kak Ain and Wan had to go, Sam, An and Moon came by.. So, we went somewhere near Christ Church Sec to kite flying near a restricted kite flying area. Wad a thing to do.. Hurhur!!

After those relentless kite flying, we decided to go SSC (Sembawang Shopping Centre). Jalan-jalan and we had dinner at kedai kopi.... =)

And the day ended with thosai in the stomach. Yummy2 =)

Selatra Gerls Day Out 0n 6/4/09

2009-04-13T20:17:00.002+08:00

I was busy with outings and stuffs... And just let the pictures do the talkings... Aite??

So, Selatra girls had an outing on 6/4/09..

Makan @ Arnold's!!! It was lovedd =)

When it rained heavily, we had to change our plans.. So, we headed to E-Hub instead of East Coast Park... Even though with my leg condition still yet to recover, I still bowled :P

Yeah, then we later head on to Zam Zam to have our dinner.. And thats when we had our giler2 cam-whoring moments =)

More pictures to be uploaded on Multiply.. Till then, I'm gonna post on my next outing =)

Henderson Waves

2009-04-13T20:00:00.000+08:00

Trip to Henderson Waves on 30/3/09 with beloved Azzy =)

Those photo-takings and eating session was loved....

holaaaa

2009-04-09T21:23:00.002+08:00

Abdul fetched me from school today and he brought me to Jurong Point. Had our dinner and it was thoughtful of him though. Sacrificing his time just to meet me before I'm off to Melacca tonight.

Thanx for everything and you're the reason why I keep on smiling.. And and.... I loverr your HOT PINK rims :P

So yeah, I'll be off to Melacca tonight in just a matter of hours. It was a rather short notice from dad though. So to all my darla, darling, hunny, babes.. Pleasse take care of yourself and don't miss me kays... :P

Till then....

Toodlez, LIYANA =)

Those feelings

2009-04-04T20:05:00.001+08:00

Things are just getting from bad to worst.

Life can be splendid yet unexpected the next moment.

How can I hide those feelings when everything seems so inevitable to do so?

Worst still....

No one even bothers what we feel.

I know.... this was what she wanted all along.

For us not to be close to him.

One by one, they left.

Leaving this place for good.

Just don't make me the next person in the list.

To leave this place AGAIN.

'Cause once I do, there won't be anymore turning back.

It hurts. It really hurts. To be discriminated and be hurt always.....

Please forgive me

2009-04-01T18:38:00.004+08:00

I hate telling lies.
But for my own benefit, and also for the rest,
It looks like I do have to refrain myself from telling the truth.

So... A white lie it is....
Again..
Just for the sake of getting myself closer to Mom..
I'm sorry DAD..
I don't mean to tell a lie, but...
Would my TRUTH hinders me from seeing Mom??
I bet so....

And to HIM I seek guidance... Please forgive me..

Toodles, LIYANA

Heart-Pouring session @ Lower Seletar on 29 Mar

2009-03-30T01:15:00.004+08:00

I have to admit that Life isn't as always as easy or wonderful.

Thus, during those down times of lives,

A LISTENING EAR

would be the greatest remedy....

Heart-pouring session..

Laughing-laughing..

Cam-whoring..

Home-cooked special macaroni by Azzy just for Lyy!!!

Makan-makan..

Star-gazing..

And Whenever the world turns behind my back, Z will always be the first to give me those remedies =) ILY hunnnz!!!

Cam-whoring is a must must!

And tomorrow.. Will be meeting up Loveliest W36M bunch! I can't wait to meet you guys ('',)

toodles, LIYANA =)

Random One

2009-03-29T02:34:00.005+08:00

I miss sitting at the wavebreaker by the beach..

Listen to the waves,
Smelling-smelling the sea

Star-gazing at night...

P.S: Any kind soul to bring me there?? hurhur :P

Loveliest HAALF

2009-03-27T01:20:00.002+08:00

*HAALF -- Haniz, Azzy, Aeisha'B, Lyy, Farah*

Haniz and Aeisha'B not in picture.

Yesterday, met up with my dearest HAALFs.... Finally, after all those moments of hysterics, I found my laughter again... =)

Im proud to say that I'm walking without the help of any crutches now.. And first thing first!! Met up with my loveliest bunch of people!! I had my fair share of laughter and more laughter. That will always happen, whenever these two buddies are around. I guess they will crack my butt even more when school reopens... Because.......... Both of them will be in the same class as me for Day 3!! Nyehh hehhh hehhh!!! I loikee!!! Confirm the double confirm, will be kecohrables... Weee!!!

That is simply why, HAALF will always be loved.. =)

Now, Azzy is having her sleepover at my crib. And I can't wait for this coming Monday.. A sleepover at Farah's crib! Woohoo!!! Can't wait for laughter and more more laughter... Sayang korang korang!!!

Loves, LIYANA =)

Contented =)

2009-03-23T22:25:00.003+08:00

The short msg from him,

Asking about my well being...

Makes me feel contented...

Least to show that he still care for me..

Although........

P.S: Thank you sunshine =)

All Good Things Come To An End

2009-03-23T20:44:00.006+08:00

Honestly, what will become of me?

I don't like reality

It's way too clear to me

But really life is dandy

We are what we don't see

We miss everything daydreaming

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end?

P.S: I miss sunshine... =(

Letting Go

2009-03-19T09:12:00.007+08:00

When one forsake's their own happiness for others. When one buries the tormented feelings in one self just for others. It can become a real pain when the things that you do seems inevitable to others.

In life, there will be different stages whereby you will meet and lose people at the same time.

And again, I'm speaking this of my own reality.

Letting go has always been the one thing that I can never tolerate. As much as it's hard to let go, It's also as much as taking a knife and stabbing it directly to the heart. Even though I've learnt the importance of letting go of things, people, situations and memories, I still inevitably failed to apply this at the right time.

Again, how can I ever do so when I've formed such an attachement to the people and things around me. Letting go can deeply be a painful and untolerable experience for me. Even the mere thought of not having the person in life squeezes the heart in pain. But since, the other party wanted to stop so that we can fulfil our own life's destiny, then,what more can I say??

It's scary and it's painful. Letting go of my old self and allowing it to process to the new me. Having to do this for countless times. But I believe, by leaving my old self behind,I can take a leap forward into the unknwown.

Even if it really hurts me, nothing makes me happier then seeing the other party happy. May GOD Bless you always.

Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure. -- Oprah Winfrey

Loves, LIYANA =)

Random Mr Stranger

2009-03-17T22:37:00.010+08:00

His smile.. OMG!!!! OMG!!! Okay Okay!! Wake Up LIYANA!!!

So yeah, this was what happened..
I was in the kitchen when someone came up ringing the doorbell..
And at that period of time, it was roughly around 6.30PM.

"Who is this Chinese guy, so smart, so......... hmmmm????"
(at the same time walking towards the door, as usual, with the support of crutches)

.....................................................................................

Him: Hie Miss, I'm from Cancer Research Association (showing his pass to me). I'm here to conduct a survey on working adults on bla bla bla blaa......... And yah, Btw, I'm Firdaus..

Me: (what??? Firdaus? Wouh... Melayu rupanya...) Ouh, I'm sorry to inform you that both my parents are away for work and they have still yet to reach home...

Him: (looking down at my feet and crutches and) What happen to your leg??

Me: Ouh, silat..

Him: Si-let??? Urrmm....

Me: (pelat melayu laa dia) Ouh, silat, You know, martial arts, sparring??? Aahh, that was when I got this fractured toe.

Him: Ohhh, silat.. Yess yesss! Fractured?? OMG!! You better take care of yourself yeah? And do get well soon... So, yeah, roughly what time will your parents reach home? And can I know where do your mother work at?

Me: Around 8plus?? And my mum's working in Raffles Medical Hospital.

Him: Okays, I'll be there again around that timing. Thanks... I'll see you again.. Miss...??

Me: Liyana... (and I'm getting restless there)

Him: Yes, Miss Liyana. I'll meet you again later.. (walking off, then turned around again). Hey, do take extra care of that fractured toe of yours..

Me: Thanx, I will... =)

........................................................................................

Again, as promised.. He came down again nearing 9PM.

Mum and dad entertained him while I was using the lappy.

And before he went off....

He mimicked "take care Liyana"

Oh my Oh my.......

Im Smitten by......... Hurhur!!

P.S: Wells, at least Mr Stranger shows some care towards another stranger... Thanks Mr Stranger, Firdaus....

Matahariku

2009-03-16T20:36:00.003+08:00

I swore I would never fall again. But I did.

Tertutup sudah pintu .. pintu hatiku

Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu

Kini kau pergi dari hidupku

Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau

Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati

Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi

Takada lagi cahaya suci

Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

Dengarlah matahariku suara tangisanku

Kubersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku

Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku

Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukan waktu

Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati

Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi

Takada lagi cahaya suci

Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

`~Matahariku - Agnes Monica

Happy Birthday Iqa!

2009-03-16T13:21:00.004+08:00

Happy 4th Birthday Sayang!!!!!!!

Specially just for you, Nur Shafiqah Qistina..

Hope you love that Minnie Mouse....

Nanti kite makan birthday cake k???

Love you sayang!!

And on another note,

Brother Dayat passed his TP today!!

Alhamdulillah... Praises to God!

Im happy for him... And and...

Guess what???

Daddy's gonna buy him a bike lah sey..!!!! Wah wah!!

Happy aku.. Ley tompang gembira and tompang motor sekali..

Kwang kwang kwang *evil smile*

Lovesloves, LIYANA =)