And....... He finally gave me some answers.......

So.. It all started out when I sent him an email on his birthday... Basically, just a simple wish laa..

To him:

Selamat hari jadi yang ke 21 tahun, Muhammad Sufiyan Bin Jumali....

From him:

kirim salam umi. i dunno how 2 cntct u anymore. never thougth dat u remember my bdae. kinda touch.. hmm

And the last talk from him:

its been long i never log in my msn. kebetulan u give me a msg. hmm... im sorry 2 hurt u. i didnt meant to. u know me.. i just got tangle up with things. dat day when in ndp, i really tak perasan u were there too. until bit told me. dats y when u msg, i say wat the fuck. bukan alasan. u know i dont observe my surround dat well sumore ramai orang. but after relising, i rasa bersalah coz tak tegur. i dunno how to start a conversation. sumore u wth ur frenzie.. on my psk fight, as i was about to fight then i saw u. i dunno y i feel so angry. sumore got to know that my opponent was ur fren, then i got flame up.. cant even concerntrat on my fight. play anyhow.. u know i cntct u few times using ur house bt u seldom at home. then ur line been cut. i really dunno how 2 cntct u. i got pissd off.. then when at night i cant calld u coz im really3 tired. sumtimes u went home late at night 2. but i guess its not alwayslah.. maybe. haiz.. u dont know how irritated was i at that point of time. im stress with my job scope. too much burden for me. then cant get u. even ndp training u see me 3rice only i came. until i came 2 a point of nt taking things too hard.. i deceided to back off.. im sorry if ever my present to ur life had leave a black mark on u, honestly i didnt meant too.. im sorry i didnt turn up on the days ur aunt past away. mamad told me. but at that time i was kinda off confuse which aunt. 2day when i check my mail, then i know. how could i miss it. i feel soso sorry for u n umi. i miss umi very2 much u know. i da anggap her like my own mum also.. hmm. but i cant change the past. i hope now u already wth ur life n will continue fight wth it. for ur better future. dont ever give up coz i know u r strong girl. keep my ring as a gift dat means life 4 u n dont ever give up. i never regret being with u coz u had brighten up my life before. n ill keep u um my sweet memories as i go on in my life. n im sure, theresome1 somewhere, there a better person that me. that will never ever break ur heart like i did. take care awak..