Torn apart

You've pierced my heart and left me to die
I sit all alone and wonder why
It's hard to go on without a heart
It was your razorblade words that tore it apart
Sribbling down sentences to describe how I feel
Nothing I write can feel this real
The mirror reflects a pain that will never fade
I'm trapped in a mess that I've made
Duct taping the broken pieces that fit into place
At a frantic pace my fingers missed
The way this night ended, I'd rather be dead.....

Nothing much..

To tell the truth or not? Nah..I think I'll just keep it to myself first...

Last Friday.. Azzy came down to my house.. We lepaking in my room.. K k, she shared about Sean too.. Haha!!! Another infatuation for Azzy.. Me?? Nah... Not any... We kind of slacked the whole night.. After we had shower, our intention was to watch "Gol & Gincu" the series.. But then.. Tup tup... I realised that Azzy was already asleep beside me.. Haha!! Quickly make the bed and asked her to sleep in the room...

The next morning.. We got up and did our RJ.. Hmm.. By 2, we were out.. I followed my parents to Changi Airport to fetch my Bro Dan from Bangkok..

Hmm...Im so fighting against boredom now.. Its strucking me like hell now.. How I wish that "he'd" be here with me now.. Haiz... Jangan berangan lah yana...

Expecting the worst...

Finally..I was able to get up from the bed.. On Tuesday, we had our Adventure Learning Programme... Well, after the high elements, we had our low elements... I passed out then.. I was totally sick... Thnx alot to Ayu, Ida and Hooi Chee for helping me.. They were practically great.. I love them and thnx sweetheart... Upon reaching home, dad brought me to clinic.. My temp was way too high.. 39.4 Degree Celcius... 2 days MC.. Aint feeling any better.. Went to the doctor again.. 1 day MC was given to me again... Well.. I was suspected of having appendicts.. Hmm...If its aint getting better, mummy will be bringing me to A&E...

As I say..Im expecting and prepared for the worst... Hmm.....

Nothing spectacular now in the eyes.. Basically, Im just going on with the flow.. I am moving on with my life... Hmm... Perhaps, is this what LIFE is all about? I bet.. No one wouldn't even have the definite answer to that question..

On Friday and Saturday... Did nothing but spent my time and day at ibu nurul's house... Mengaji and help ibu cook some stuff.. Well, at this point of time, I feel that I'd rather spent my time now
with my god-mother... Cum saturday night, met Azzy at Admiralty past 11PM.. Chit-chat with her at the Macdonalds.... She slepover my house and we do had a long chat that night.. Tell you guys what? I was mesmerised by her story... Hee!!

Sunday? Well... mummy asked me along to eat at Sakura International Buffet located at Orchard Shopping Center.. Well, my family had a great time there.. Practically, everyone was trying to stuff their stomach with all the available foods there....Kakak came down at night... We had a talk too...

And today... Did nothing but slacking at home.. The movie "Qabil Kushri Qabil Igam" (spell check) got me all teary even though I've watched that movie over and over again....

And yes people!!! Im accepted in Percussion!! Alhamdulillah... Well, this is the time people... (:

A brand new beginning...

Oh yes... And finally guys... I've made new blog... The old one shall be abandoned.. Just too much memories beholds me..

Life indeed has to move on... I wished that I'd never gotten myself into the mess... But then, realising the fact that it's the mess that have actually realise the importance of self dependent.. I know..All this while I've been too dependent on him.. Not realising the fact that
"I was actually being a great burden to him" .....

Im sorry dearr..I promise that I wont trouble u again with my chaotic life.. I'll be out of your life... I promise that I won't trouble you ever again...

So yeah.... Life has to move on... Im trying real hard now... Hmm......

Moving on......
Moving on......
Moving on......