"Hello kakak!!!"

I will always be greeted by her cute voice each time I step in to the house... Followed by a hug... Who else?? If it's not my cute lil niece.... So adorable... And the next moment..

"Kakak, cake for u.."
And she pulled me to the fridge... Ibu told me that she specially kept that cake aside for me which no one can eat that..... Aww!! So sweet rite?? And so... I ate that cake laa... Just to please her despite that I was already so full..... Kakak Sayang Iqa...

And Yess!!! finally.... I got Maltesers..... Weee!!! So happy sey... Thankiu awak for the maltesers..... (:

Saturday...

NDP training....
A day that strikes me tears again....
In the past.. I was always greeted by sunshine.. Baby.. Sweetheart.. Love... I was pampered.. Nothing more that I want at that point of time... Always telling myself that you'll always be mine... All I wanted was to just clear this mess once and for all... I swear... Our eyes met during the training... But how could you?? Saying "WTF" to me? I can't believe it.. Truly, it was your razorblade words that torn me apart.. Sadness... Anger... tell me about it... You didnt even care about my feelings... How could you??? Do I deserve this??

I can't believe that you did this to me...

Aziemah... Thanx for listening to my sorrows and again and again comforting me.. I felt much better though after that long hours of talking with you on the phone... You're a true friend of mine indeed... I do appreciate your kindness though..... Love you....

Nevertheless... I promise that... That night shall be the last night that I shall ever shed tears for you.. Im assuming that it's all over between you and me now... I shall not think of you again... But the memories between us shall hold as a sweet journey of mine in my heart..

Let nature takes its way...
I shall enjoy every moment of my life now coz...
Life is just too short to be sad.....

Quote from Aziemah: " Move on with your life Liyana. And take care of those people around you now who really cares and loves you...Im sure you will find your happiness one day...."

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Today...

Went to Kak Ayu's house.. (Well..her house is just beside my house... We are cousins, ex-schmates and neighbours too) So... Upon reaching her house, I came in to the room to look for kak ayu... Was astonished by her beauty... Kak zarina and johan was there too.. Both were kak ayu's fren and my seniors too.. shocked to see me.. Johan.. Asking me this...

Johan: Ehh...Hai...you're here??? Daa lame sampai?

Me: yeah...Hmmm... taklah, aru jer smpai.. Dekat je maa... Ruma sebelah ajek..

Johan: Huh??Sebelah jerr??? Oh..u guys neighbours? (shocked)

Me: yee...kite jiran.. there, my house is just beside there...

And so on...haha!! they were shocked laa to hear that we're neighbours..

Btw...Congratz kak Ayu on your pertunangan...

Bestest theraphy??

A great DISTRACTION right now..



Am not too sure either why... One good question that provoked me to great thinking....



"AM I LYING TO MYSELF??"

"DO I DESERVE TO BE TREATED THIS WAY?''



Well.... Hmm..... I ain't too sure either...



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Schedule for the upcoming days...



Saturday: NDP training

Sunday: Kak Ayu tunang

Monday: Skewl

Tuesday: Skewl & Dinner with family (silat-im sori I have to forgo it)

Wednesday: Skewl

Thursday: Skewl & NDP training

Friday: Skewl

So sweet rite???Aww.... Cute laa my lil bro......

Received msg from Dydy @ 3.04PM...

"Nxt Tues, blg abg, Dan n urself. Pls make urself free on the 1st. mit me at wlds lame, dun ask y. n make sure perut kosong tau. wil confem if jadi ke tk. =)"

Dydy msg laa...So long of absence..Finally...I lurvee u bro...

Currently listening to: Takdir Cinta by Rossa...
Im in lurve with the song laa...

As expected....I was so disappointed laa... Went to Booklink again and MALTESERS was still not available... Arghh!!! Im so craving for it laa....

Am accepting the fact now....

Kewl or wad??? Tell me abt it......

Btw...As a special gratitude.... I'd like to say many thanks to those people who has remarkably left a deep footprint in my life....

First and foremost....

To my mum: Thanx for all the tender loving care yet juicy.. Wahaha!! that you've given me.. Without you standing here still in the earth, I wouldn't be here all grown up now.. Ur the sweetest thing ever that I can never wished for... Love you mummy.....

To baba: Thanx for all those sacrifices that you've done for me.. When I know at times, you were being left at a spot between me and your wife (step mum) and your step-daughter. Nothing more I could wished for but just your everlasting love and affection. However, I just wished.... That you could be a bit more reasonable and pays a lil more attention to me..

To shima & aziemah: For all those moments that we've spent through together during our ITE lives will always be deeply stored in my heart. Having to go through all those lectures and endless practicals was a great memorance for me. Labcoats and agar plates... Nasi ayam Cafe 1, Yong Tau Fu Cafe 1, toast Cafe 1, chocolate waffles from Cafe 2, pau from Cafe 3, Noods and Seng City!! Name it alll... Im missing all that laa.... And on top of all that, I sure do miss you guys....

Shima, ME, Aziemah

To Allissa: Never knew that you would be a true friend of mine till now... Those days spent in Hong Kong together were awesome... I miss those days when we jumped up and down like nobody's business in HK.. Miss mango tango with you.... woo hoo!! Up till now.. No matter how busy you are, you would never fail to beep me.. Leaving me smiling the whole day... IMY so so much laa....

To Azzy: I knew you eversine in our ITE lives. Those days were simply a Hi Bye for us and nothing more than that. Surprisingly, eversince in RP, Despite knowing each other for like only months, we sure have went through alot. U sleeping over my house almost every Friday were greatly appreciated by me. Our trip to Melacca was a remarkable one.... For all those motivations that you've said shall always be stored in my head always..Hee! I love you babe....

To Ain: Thanx for all those comforting words and again and again listening to same old story of mine.. I know, I know.... Life is too short too be angry or sad.. Tell me about it....

To Aeisha: Thanx for listening to my crapz... And thanx for the hug just now.. It made me feel better anyways... One thing for sure, its all over now...

To Su: Rabak.. Member this year masuk NDP tak ajak.. But nvm.. we still get to meet right?? Motivators and silat... Dun tell me ur still gonna wear dat kinky costume?? wahahaha!! I so miss those BL and NDP times with you back then in ITE laa... Pst psst!! Free currypuffs tkder lagi ker? hee... And I love u lots too babe.....

Me.... Su.... Aren... Miss NDP 2007

To that special someone: Despite knowing for only a few weeks, your presence has really light up my life.. Rays of hope.... Hoping and praying that the next day would be a surprise.. *Smiling*

For all those unmentioned names... I love you guys too.. (: (: (:

Finally...After months of waiting...Desire of getting the answer... 21st June marks the day of awaiting...Finally you gave me the answer...

I was prepared for it anyway.. Well... You could have at least told me earlier... Not by leaving me hanging like this for months...

After what we've been through... After all the sacrifices that I've done for you.. After all those ups and downs...

You DUMPED me...!!!!!

He dumped me??

*SLAPS on my face*

Yess!!! He dumped u dumbhole..

Well.......

One last say.....

Thankiu awak.....

Thankiu awak for destroying my life!!!

The thought of "him" makes me wanna go puke!! Indiscernible behaviour. One moment he can go "GAGAGA" and the other moment he can be the totally opposite of that. Split personality huh???

Applause to that JERK!! *Shacks*

*Blind me for falling for u*

Goodbye JERK!!!

Hello ________?????

Movin' On....

DAY 1.....

9Th June 2008

OK....People..Firstly first, I only managed to sleep past 2 in the morning..

Psst psst: *Penat ISC masih lom ilang*

So yeah... This pic was taken at Larkin.. Had roti prata telur.. And lemon tea.. Guess wad? Me & Azzy was like laughing our ass out..coz almost everything that were sold there was only RM 1.50.. Haha!!

This pic was taken past 11..We were already in the Coach to Melake!! Weee!!!

Yeah!! And we went camwhoring all the way in the bus..

I so wanted to sleep laa..But.. But...I ended up talking with Azzy...

Reached Malacca dot 2PM.. By the time I was famished...

Headed to A&W....

Awww....I so love it laa....

Look at that Root Beer Float... Goshh!! Im so craving for it now laa...

Look at that Menara behind me.....We're so gonna go and take that ride tomorrow laa... Ooo yaa.. This pic was taken right after the Kung Fu Panda Movie... Funny laa sei....

At Perigi Hang Tuah...Well..This is actually not the real perigi...It was just his footsteps..

Day 2....

10th June 2008

Look at that antique bustop...It's actually just a few steps away from my kampung..

Waited for the Panaroma Bus..And headed to.....Bandar Hilir..

First thing first...
Chendol!!! Wah.... Heaven laaa... Yummy2!!
Then to Makam Hang Jebat...

Took the trishaw...Best tau!!! Pakcik bukak lagu dondang sayang laa sey... And brought us round the City of Melake...

Yessaa!! Finally we're here on the Menare of Melake... Im all 8 feet high above the ground..

LOVE the Night view...

Last stop was to Air Panas at Alor Gajah..

Lucky there was my Abg Is to drive us there...

It took me half an hour laa to be in then pool of hotspring...While Azzy only like took few minutes.. Pheww...

Day 3.......

11 June 2008

What more... To A&W again.... This time we had waffles w ice-cream..Heaven laa... But.. I didnt even finish up the waffle laa...
Look at Azzy.... Wah Wah... She's really enjoying herself laa...

And yess people... That's all... No more camwhoring after that... We finally boarded the coach back to Singapore at 5PM.... Reached Singapore past 9PM... I love it so much laaa... Finally... I am away on my own... Kewl!!

Next... The both of us planned to go elsewhere again at the end of this year.. And Im so so waiting for that laa..... Till then..... (:

Yeshh!!! I got Kit Kat from Azzy today...
Love it alot laa... Like i said.... Showers me with chocz and I'll love u with all my heart.. hahaha!!


Am back... Accompanied Min to eat at TRCC juz now.. Hee... (:

Well well... I noe dat she's head over heals for him... Hahaha!!! Thnx to me rite rite azzy??? If its not fer me oso, I guess she wouldnt be able to talk with him.. Haha!! Not forgetting hisyam too... Thanx hisyam... haha!!! happy laa to see my friends happy....

Yeah people... Azzy is going to set up Futsal here in RP... So..yeah!! And guess wad laa??? Both her eye candies are in for FUTSAL.. Hah? Wad??? Say it again?? Yeshhh!!! Both of them la... Hisyam too... and their gangs... Kewl.. I pray that Azzy's wishes would come true.... (:

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And yess people... Finally ISC is over... RP came in 3rd.. And RP also won the Best of the Best...Well Well...Keep it up Selatra's... Everyone did jolly well... So proud sey... And happy too for everyone who has fight till their last breath... Its all worth the effort... Those times engaging ourselves day and night in preparing for ISC to happen... It was worth the effort people...



FIGHT TILL OUR LAST BREATH RP...GO...RP SELATRA WARRIORS!!






This was one of the first and i guess very last pics that I took with the seniors during the ISC..

Maimanah and Raudah... Hearts them lots.. Im so going to miss everyone laa.....

Grabbed this from Bid... Haha!!! Well... This pic was taken on the opening ceremony of the ISC... on the 6th June 08...

More pics and stuffs shall be updated.... Ooo yaa.... Melake picz... Azzy still owes me the picz la.... *DENGZ*.... Hahaha!!! Shall update that once I got all the pics yeah??

First of all...Of all the people that I LOVE and MISS the most would be my beloved mummy.. I miss u so much mummy... How I wish that I can be with u always... To stay with u, to grow up with you has always been my biggest WISH..DREAMS.. But I knew that no matter what, all that would be a dream... A dream that would never be achieved... I miss u mummy.... I miss the way u scolded me.. The way u look at me & tell me that everything's going to be alright... I misses u so much that I can never roll any more tears down my cheeks.......... Can I have u back mummy???????

Suddenly..I miss ITE....

One of the formal shots that we took before our last footsteps in College East..
Special dedication To: Shima & Aziemah...
Thanx alot gerlfrens for being a great company throughout my ITE life..

Whatever ups and downs that we've went through beholds as unforgettable memories. Love you babes!!

Weee!!!!

Am home now... Back from school to prepare the arena's for tmr's event... Aww..So sweet laa looking at the Selatrans working together hand in hand to set up all those that's supposed to be setup.. Haha!! And not forgetting also.. Thnx to those who actually waited together with me for my dad to arrive and fetch me.. Hearts u guys!

And yessaa!! Finally, after days of loneliness and boredom, my loveliest bros are back home now... Wee!! I so miss their craps laa.... Well, after days of their absence to mummy's house, Im like so glued to my room... Now that they are back home with me, its time for us to crack our stomach again.. Hahaa!!

As planned, tmr will be the last two days of ISC.. Yeay!! It's coming to an end soon.. I pray that RP will hold the glory this year.. Insyaallah....

Melake Melake Melake!!

Im so head over heels for Melake laa..The one freedom that I've ever wanted for for so long.. The getaway... And finally, it was accomplished...

As far as I was concerned, there was nothing more that I wanted for at that period of time.. Life was luxurious.. Haha!! Mcm puteri laa...

Like the song from zarina...

Jika dunia aku yang punya
Akan ku hiaskan
Sebuah syurga malam tanpa siang
Untukku bermimpi sepanjang masa
Tanpa kecewa bertemankan bintang yang setia
Bagaikan puteri
Kisah khayalan yang hidupnya suci dan sempurna.....

Me and Azzy so love this song laa..... Day and night, we'll listen to this song together gether... Hey! and yeay!! Since this trip has been a very fruitful and enjoyable one, we planned to go KL or Cameron Highland one day... Perhaps at the end of this year.. So cant wait fer dat laa....

late night post

First day of the school holiday..and guess wad? It was ever the best kick-up start for the week.. Firstly, in the morning, me and Ayu went to IMCB (Institute of Molecular & Cell Biology) our old workplace.. We had a small gathering there with our loveable mentors.. Ordered pizza and chilled around..

Then, I met Azzy at Wlds intc.. Headed to JB as per planned.. First thing first, was to head to Larkin and get the bus ticket to Malacca.. And Yesh! Our trip to Melacca will be on the 9th of June.. Finally people, im getting a getaway from this chaotic life of mine.. We so are counting the days for the trip man.. Argghh!! Yesaaa.... Finally!! Not forgetting too that we actually watched "Indiana Jones" just now at City Square... It's a nice movie to watch people.. Seriously...

And..standard... As usual..Im so bored that only the Korean dramas would be a great company of mine.. Im so gonna continue watching Sweet 18 laa.... Araso!!