Peace be upon you...

Aneways.. A hectic day it is today...

Family headed to Pusara Abadi early morning.. It's been a month plus now atok has left us.. Fuhh!! I tell u ehk.. The day when atok was burried, its surrounding was empty.. But, just now, to my astonishment, the whole lot was fully packed.. Shocking!!

I was reciting some prayers when suddenly someone called out "Yana!!".. Guess who?? Rahul sey.. Haha!! Of all people.. We chatted for some time and exchanged prayers for our lost relatives..

Aneways, after that, we had breakfast at Al-Amin with Mak long and mak busu.. Then, daddy was supposed to send me to TTSH.. I was trying to squeeze every single minute in the car to take a nap.. Practically, I was extremely exhausted laa...

Then, I was woken up when ibu says that she's sending baba to A&E.. Claiming that he's having chest pain.. Pity baba... I can see the pain he's going through.. For the first time, I saw him crying.. And it's only a one person company, so baba told me to get my way to go and meet my niece and all..

Headed to ICU and look up for my aunt.. Alhamdulillah, she's doing better but there's still the no no to food and drink.. I was touched and fell to tears twice when she calls out for my name and touches my face.. And I've promised her that I'll bring her out to eat when she's better...

As per planned, I met my sayang at Wlds Mrt at 0840 hours... And the first thing, we ran and hug each other.. Aww!! I so miss my sayang laa... One week tau I didnt meet my sayang...

Dun get me wrong ahh... It's Azzy la... So yeah, we headed to Sheng Siong and shop for our class chalet thingy... Lepak under her void deck and I reached home at 12 15 hours..

Baba was asleep.. Ibu told me that its nothing serious but just a contraction of the muscles... Praying that my daddy will get well soon.. It just hurts me enough seeing him in that kind of state..

And shacks... My nasal passage way is clogged up again.. Which leads me to unwillfully drop three drops of Ephedrine into it.. Yucks!! I don't like the feeling sey... Then, the substances that's irritating my air passages is causing me to constantly produces excessive mucus.. Each time troubling me to suck two puffs of the ventolin evohaler when required.. Haizz...

Aneways aneways... Just what a nice weather to tuck in to bed.. Seems like my queen size bed is all calling for me... Wee!! Im off... Daa('',)

Daddy told me to get a new phone... And so yeah, I did.. To and fro to Sony Ericsson Service Centre is killing me..... Though I have the new phone with me, I still love my old W580i.. ('',)

Aneways, I just got home from TTSH... The thought of seeing my aunt in ICU reminds me of Arwah atok... Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, semoga arwahnya sentiasa dicucuri rahmat.. Amin..

Aneways, Seeing my aunt with the help of respirator, really gives me goosebumps.. Though she's my aunt and older then me, I can say that she's a "Special Child".. Yes, she's indeed a special child coz she has down syndrome eversince she was born.. It was only yesterday that she was admitted to TTSH due to lungs infection and swollen heart.. It despairs me..Seeing her in that kind of state.. All she did was cry in agony and constantly called out for her dad.. It got me teary when she touches my hand, touches nenek's and mummy's face... I can see how excited she was when she saw her love ones coming in to the room.. Waving her hand frantically at us.... Gosh!! It really touches my heart.... Plus, the Doctor prohibited her from eating and drinking anything, but she kept pestering us for food.. I can feel the pain that she's going through now... How I wish I could feed her with some food.. Then, at one point of time, she said she wanted a balloon.. So, I ran down, bought her a big balloon and gave it to her.. It really warms my heart seeing a smile on her face..

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku.. Jauhilah cik nonik dari segala penyakit dan mudah kan lah perjalanan hidupnya.. Sesungguhnya, engkaulah yang maha berkuasa... Amin..

Hmm... I guess, tomorrow its a pretty pack day for me.. Early morning, I'll be going to kubuh arwah atok.. Then, run some family matters.. To TTSH, then 8.30PM, I'll be meeting Azzy at Sheng Siong to shop for our class chalet food.. Fuhh!!

Wee!!! I so cant wait for our class chalet... ('',)

Aneways... Guess what? I dunnoe y.. I was walking and suddenly, I smell this familiar smell... At instance, I shout to myself.. THALLIUM!!!!! I smell THALLIUM.. I turned and turned but to disapointment... Haiz....

"Pandangi langit malam ini"

Putri, jangan menangis
Hapus air mata
Di wajah cantikmu

Putri, kepergianku
Tak akan lama
Tahan rindumu

Putri, seandainya saja
Kubisa, menghentikan waktu
Kuhentikan waktu

Bila kau rindukan aku putri,
Coba kau pandangi langit malam ini, aku di situ
Bila itu tak cukup mengganti
Cobalah kau hirup udara pagi, aku di situ

Mungkin dengan perpisahan
Kita kan mengerti arti pertemuan

Putri, percaya padaku
Ini hanya likuan hidup
Yang pasti berakhir

And.. I was once dedicated this song... A song that's indeed full of meaning..

Im missing you now.... But...

All I could do now is to just lay my eyes on the sky each time I misses you.... Hmmmm......

I miss you.......

So near yet so far...

Another day spent in JB.. Just some things to settle.. Mak Long brought me to Danga Bay and we had dinner.. Ala kampong atmosphere gitu.. Syiok tau I say..! The food galore there was absolutely splendid.. Im so going to bring my family there again next time.. ('',)

Aww... And.... Gosh!! Im effing missing my sweetheart.... She's having high fever now and under the care of her mummy... Get well soon k baby?? Kakak Love Iqa....

Mwaahss! Mwaahss!! Mwaaahss!!

Aneways, BFF called.. Swimming tomorrow at Jurong? Urm, Im sorrie darla.. I don't think I'll be able to make it... We'll make it up some other days yeah? Love yahh..

And....

And.....

W36M!!!!! I miss you guys laa...

" Counting down to our chalet... *winks*"

See yaa people..!!

A twist of fate changes when she bumps into him at a family mart. A discovery of a loving marriage entails the true love of the man for his wife. However, her gradually losing of memory due to Alzhemeir's disease doesn't stop the man from loving his wife until the very end.

The movie "A moment to remember" describes the discovery of a relationship and the burden of loss caused by Alzhemeir's disease. And a caption from the movie....

"Forgiving is giving your hate just a litte room in your heart"

No matter how much your hatred is for a person, be humble and never fails to forgive that person as one that forgives, is someone who always has a big heart....

And... To those people who really need a good weeping, you guys should spare some time watching this movie.. It's worth your time people.. *winks*

Aitez... Yana outz!

Sadness flies away on the wing of time.....

Revalina - Ceritaku

"Di malam ini , Di Waktu ini
Ku masih terkenang dirimu
Biarpun tiada kau disisi , diriku .
Senyumanmu , raut wajah mu
Membuatku terus merindumu
Biarpun kau meninggalkan aku , cintaku .

Ku cuba tanpamu disisi
Ku cuba tanpa hidup denganmu
Meskipun ku tak mampu lupakan mu , kasihku .
Ku cuba tanpamu dihati
Ku cuba berhenti merindukan mu
Ternyata tiada pengganti dirimu , selamanya .

Sedetik ini , ketika ini
Ku masih memikirkan mu
Dimanakah dirimu kini , gadisku .
Andai aku , ulangi lagi cerita aku dengan kamu
Takkan ku menyakiti hatimu , bintangku .

Ku cuba tanpamu disisi
Ku cuba tanpa hidup denganmu
Meskipun ku tak mampu lupakan mu , kasihku .
Ku cuba tanpamu dihati
Ku cuba berhenti merindukan mu
Ternyata tiada pengganti dirimu , selamanya .
Kini . . . . "

'a minute of hope??' I hope so this time..

A distinct stab to my heart when I saw the joystick to my MP3 cracked.. It was a birthday gift from him... Still remember those days..

Was walking with him at Causeway Point.. Randomly told him that the MP3 is nice.. And so yeah, he went into the shop and bought that MP3 at instance, together with its silicon case.. Asking him whose dat for? And he replied, its for him.. Ohh okay... But yeah, he did asked me to choose the colour and everything..... Which I did laa... Then, we sat down at B1.. Suddenly, he came up to me and said this..

Him:"Hope you won't get angry when I tell you this"

Me:"What is it?"

Him:"Nah, this is for you... ( and he handed me the Creative Zen V Plus that he'd bought) I want you to have this.. Though it might be one month earlier to your birthday, I hope that you'll like the gift...."

To my astonishment... Awwww!!! He was damn sweet laa.... But... But...That was all in the past..

Damn!!! I miss ventriloquist....!!!!

Haizz.... How could I have been so careless to it??

Its disheartening knowing that your sincerity wasnt even being appreciated. Am all speechless now.. Nothing more I can say.. Though it was just another moment of us side-tracking, whatever it is, be professional laa.. (nak marah pon, jgn laa marah kite dpn2 orang ramai. Kite pon ade perasaan sey) And.... If you want a respect from us, then shows us the respect first.. Eyy!! Come on laa.. We are humans after all.. It's human nature to make mistakes.. Whatever laa ehk... Tak kuase aku nak gi tempat tuh lagi...

Aneways..

Happy Birthday to:

Dydy & Sa'idah --the 14th August babies...

It was another hysterical moments for us all... And.. Am truly blessed with the presence of uncle now in our life... Really hope that he could be the backbone for us all...

**Pics will be uploaded soon**

Aneways again....

Though it was just yesterday that I flooded my eyes, I felt much more relieved though.. I know its hard, having to make the most critical decision, knowing that the consequences will be disastrous..

How I just wish to have a wings so that I could fly far far away from here....

Hmmm..............

**To have wings like the butterfly...I wanna fly away from here**

And.. The kenduri arwah selamat dijalankan.. Ustaz Abdul Rahman was also there... Apart from that, I sure had a great time with my cuzzie and all.. Aneways, Im sleeping over granny's house today and tomorrow shall be a family outing day... ('',)

Fuhh!!!! Busy busy..... Just so many things to do.... Aneways, here's just a quickie updatez of what's been happeing around....

So yeah...

!!Saturday -- 9 Aug!!

NDP!! Wee!! So yeah practically there was a lot of camwhoring.. Hey!! Though the platform was wet, we did performed well.. And now that NDP is over, sob sob... Sadly there wont be anymore free KFCs, Pizzas, ice cream, Old Chang Kees, free flow Soya Bean.. No more wearing blue and orange silat uniform.. No more hanging out with the silat people...No more hanging out at Mac after the parade with the selatrans.. No more fireworks.. No more dancing on the platform.. Aww....Im so gonna miss all that laa... But aneways, we sure had a great time.. Right people??

So yeah... Picture explains all the fun times that we had....

!!Sunday -- 10 Aug!!

Kak Chacha Wedd... She look awesome in her pink ala modern Kebaya.... And that mummy of mine... I sure love her loads... Nothing can ever be traded for my one and only mummy ku...

And then, met up with the Selatrans at Pasir Ris and we went to Amira's Sis Wedd... We all decided to wear green in conjunction of RP... Kewl?? Hmm... And, Fuhh!!! Pack giler I say... Ramai org pat sane.. Met Fadir & Firdaus.. The senior twins from my old sch WRS.. And and!!! they smiled at me.. Amazing that they still remember me..Haha!! And alot more silat people laa... One thing for sure, kak Edah looks gorgeous laa... Oooh yaa... Not forgetting that Umar sang a song too.. Fuhh!!! Power giler laa suara Umar... Didnt expect that he has a good voice...

So yeah...Here's The greeny Selatrans...

Psssttt!! Psssttt!!! "Azri ckp kite sume mcm rumput. Tak baik sey!!!"

And here's the funshotz that we took after the wedd... The Selatrans turned 7++ years old for one moment... Wahaha!!! Played arcade and the 10 of us went camwhoring in that machine.. How kiddy can us be? I'll let you to decide that kays? Ahakz!!

!!Monday -- 11 Aug!!

Some says that my cheeks are getting rounder and rounder as the days goes by... (huh??) Non-stop smiling and laughing... W36M just made all my days... To be surrounded by a group of loveliest bunch of people was awesome!!! And now that the Four months has come to an end, Im so going to miss each and everyone of the W36M peepz.. From stranger to buddies.. I wonder if I can ever have the same group of people as W36M as my new class when shool reopens.. Hmm....

I miss W36M!!!

So yeah... It was the last Culture lessons for Vippy.. As usual... W36M had 7P for our beloved Faci....... Just some funshots uploaded during the last Prob 16 of Culture.....

* Aneways, this wasn't the 7P that we did for Vippy*

!!Tuesday -- 12 Aug!!

Grand finale of W36M... Science Faci, Dr Liew brought W36M for Pizza Hut.. Perfect moment for us all.. W36M had Pop-Mee Fiesta during lunch which brought our sincere apologies to Faci as we told him that we'll be having Pop-Mee cum Pizza Hut.. However, the no Pizza made him drool and crave for that which initiated him for the Pizza Hut after school.. Hopefully, your sincerity will be blessed one day... ('',)

W36m Pizza Hut Troopers.....

We had this... But there were more to this for sure...

And our innocence made him $200 poorer.. Hehe!!!

Feeling guilty, Me, Azzy, Huiqi and Sean went for a jog that very night.. Phewww!! It was worth than everything I say... Haha!!!!

Life is effing nice when you skipped class and travel all the way from the North to the East. How cool it is to hang out outz with your beloved peepz and had a hell great of time. Knowing that the FOUR months is coming to an end soon, we thought that we could seek a lil time more for ourselves.

So yeah... Last Friday dated 8 August 2008, W36M met up at Changi Airport Terminal 3 and we had our most wonderful Popeye Chicken & Biscuits lunch over there... Awww... Im so gonna freaking miss those moments that we had together with those crazy, unique individuals but also the loveliest bunch of classmates laa...

Though there were a guilty conscience of feeling towards our Maths faci, but whats done is done.. Haha!! We sure had a great time!!

Aneways, here are a few uploaded piccas to show the fun times that we had... The rest, shall be uploaded on my multiply kays??? Enjoys.... ('',)

P.S: As a matter of fact, the total pics taken was 150... Mind you! Wahahaha!!!

This proves that Dim W36M as Strings!!

And all those things that we bought.. Damn!!! It's making me hungry now.....

Happy eating people... *winks*

Aww... The pic sweetness.... I lurvee you guys....

And randomness speaks again....

So yeah... After the whole makan thingy, we went to Bugis and did a lil shopping there... Went home past 6. Ard 8, me and yayat went out and met Azzy too and the three of us went for my cuzzie sis akad nikah..... Though we were practically exhausted due to the whole day outing, me and Azzy sure really enjoyed ourselves....

And the best part.... The whole tired mindset was drained away when my dear mummy entertained us.... *winks* Love you mummy.....

So yeah... Lucky baba had OT that day.... I was practically exhausted and nervous too for tomorrow's NDP parade.. So yeah, thanx baba for fetching us... *winks*

Till then......

Its been three weeks now.. And Im still sick eversince the death of my atok.. Till Im well, only then my mum will allow me to go for my silat training.. Yalaa, having cough and asthma, she doesnt want anything bad to happen to me... Sob sob...

Aneways.. Today and yesterday mark the most memorable day for us W36M..

Yesterday, we had Enterprise and Jacob our facilitator did the best thing ever.. Ok ok, Im not supposed to reveal anything.. *winks* Aneways, W36m had a 7P for Jacob... Aww.... Touching right?? Yeah.. It was sweet though...

So yeah...this is the few slides posted...

Aneways, this is not all.... There was actually more to this.... As for today, all was random.. Azzy & me did the 7P impromptu.. I did the editing of the pics while Azy did the whole PPT thingy.. Aneways, million thnax to our Science Faci for giving a bookmark for all of us.. Though it was just a bookmark, it wasnt like any other bookmarks.. It was a customised bookmark with words of wisdom on it and which he spent late night doing it till he slept at 5A in the morning... Aww... Touching right our faci??

So yeah.... this was the most liveliest pic that I ever loved... Look at our faci laa... He was supposed to take a pic of us but ended up, he took a picture of himself instead... *winks*

This was the first and foremost outdoor lessons that we ever had.. Initially, we had the fire drill exercise.. and then, faci decided to continue the second meeting there.. Cool or wad??

So yeah... This is all... There were more slides to it actually....

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And yeah... half of the class wont be coming to school tomorrow... Wee!!! Couldn't care less either... So yeah people... Dun be late hor tmr... 12PM @ Changi Airport..

Hmm..... Aneways, one thing for sure.. Im happy for my mummy... Glad that she's found her happiness though I may not be by her side right now..

Those fun times that we had....

..NDP Preview 2 Aug 08..





Simply love all.. Background pic is the RP gerls with the Singapore Sports School girls... Not forgetting too that I got a pic with my silat idol.. Kak Sa'idah.. Wee!! Really look up to her man(: Also... Kak Sa'idah invited the RP'ians to her bro's wedd this Sunday... Must go tau people??





Aneways... Wee!!! Rezeki ku bertambah... Alhamdulillah.... (:



And and.... Im planning for another getaway again.... Wee!!! ('',)

*listening to "tinggal tanda tanya" by Ella*

Insomnia is killing me and that explains the late night post..

Anyways.. I was greeted by MALTESERS early morning.. Thnkiu MOON!!! So sweet of you.. Lurve u darla... And yeah.. NDP preview was another blast.. Camwhored here and there.. But piccas still yet to get from Su and moon... Not forgetting too that our face were shown on the screen when we were doing "static".. So paisey laa....

And the fireworks.... I Simply love the fireworks laa.... Reminiscing the past.. I miss watching fireworks together with that someone... Hmm......

Well well..... What's life without memories right?? *winks*

Its really a blessing having to confide with your beloved confidants... Well.. Life wasn't really as unfair as what I've always thought it to be..

Whatever that Zyy and Sean had said, really reflects back alot.. Especially the part where Sean says this: "Its not a matter of u accepting the fact, but it's a matter of u learning to accept the fact. Learning to accept the fact is harder that you can expect it to be"... Sees the difference between the two statement? So yeah... What he meant was true enough.. I have to learn to accept the fact...

Life is a like chapters in the book.. The past chapters beholds as past memories where it'll soon be as an experience to you. But to unfold the present chapters, you will have to read and explore it further in order for you to understand and discover whatever the content will be like.. So yeah.. I am going to explore this whole new chapter in my life that is yet to unfold...

Perhaps, there is more to the new chapters????

One thing for sure... I ain't gonna let that excess baggage to be a barrier in my life....

And as usual... KFC was waiting for me again... *winks*

This time round... I passed the same theory to Nan.. Well well... He still has this excess baggage in his life for like almost two years... Asking me what would I do if I were to be in his place? Simple... I merely answered this : "Only u have the answer Nan. It's a matter if whether u still wants to stay on with the old chapter OR move on to a whole new chapter in your life. But, if u still think that there is faith for u to get back with her, then keep on having that faith for I believe that if u keep holding on to that faith, that faith will come true."

He was truly amazed by my maturity though.. But but.... He still said this... : " I miss the old Yana..." Hmm.........

So... Well people... Life is about taking chances... Once slip, there ain't gonna be anymore turning back... Do not ever regret with whatever mistakes that you've done but instead, learn from it.. Keep holding on to that faith if you think that there's faith... Insyaallah, you'll have a positive gain from it... ('',)

P.S: Im still holding on to that faith.... (: