So yeah.... Ever wondered what this picture is all about?? Well well.... Dated 28 July08... The BCT - RP peepz decided to do a belated birthday celebration for Aeisha B.. Hmm... Though its kind of real belated, I hope that our dearie Aeisha wouldn't mind it...

So yeah, this first pic shows me and Ayu.. Walking together hand in hand to E3... Wah.. Sweet kan?? I know..U dun have to say it.. Haha!! Sayang Ayu... Talking about Ayu, I just miss those days when the both of us were attached to Biopolis - IMCB (Institute of Molecular & Cell Biology).. One thing for sure, we sure had a hell great of time there laa..... So yeah, back to the story...

And... I Camwhored again... Wahaha!!!

And that's our dearie Aeisha B in her reddy dress... Our national silat player too... Cute kan die???

Happy birthday to you..

Happy birthday to you....

Happy birthday to Aeisha....

Happy birthday to you....

Look at the girls?? Wah wah Haniz... Sempat pose nie?? Haha.. And Farah, wads with that look?? Azzy, senyum pat saper je tuh...???

Though it was just a small celebration, I truly thanx to all those BCT peeps who actually took their time to come and celebrate Aeisha Bdae... Not forgetting to Whoda too... Who made her way all the way from SP to RP... Really appreciate it babe!!!

Much loves to my dearies....

From the left: Farah (in yellow), Ayu (in purple tudung), Sa'idah, Aeisha, Tina, Me, Whoda...

Not in picutre: Su (Milk) and Ayeen...

Ooh yaa...Btw..That sunflower that Aeisha was holding was actually a gift from all of us.. Sweet tak??

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So yeah..again..Its Mak Long's birthday yesterday... So, she came down to my house with Uncle.. Celebrated her bdae... This time round I didnt eat any cake as the cake contain caffeinne... Hmm....

And the best part... Bestfriend called me at 11.41PM... He said that its my rezeki again.. He got lotsa KFC to be given to me... Ape taknyer... Member rider pat KFC 888... So yalaa.... He came to my house... Dayat chatted a while with him.. Serve the chickens to my elders... Hehe!!

And after a while.. He msged me this...

Nan: "Now, u jus enjoy ur chicks that I gave you..Haha!! Hope ur cheeks will get plummer than mine!!"

Thanx bestfriend..

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Nevertheless... Having said much.. Im truly grateful and blessed to be surrounded by beautiful bunch of nice people... Alhamdulillah... Bless to Allah... Im being rewarded with beautiful people who has a beautiful heart...

A heartwarming gesture to all my family and friends.. Who has been consistently been there for me whenever I needed someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on... True friends they are... Crazy friends also they are... I simply love them....

Not forgetting too...Today is Al-Furqan's (my step brother) birthday...

Happy 20th birthday to you...

*Syukur alhamdulillah kerana ku dianugerahkan teman teman yang berhati mulia*

Call for chicken???

A random call speaks it all..

Timed 11.22PM...

Which I was still on my way back home....

Bestfriend called me... Wee!! Afnan just called me coz he wanted to give me KFC chicken... Wah?? So nice or wad?? Haha!!! So happy laa.... So yeah... He was already under my void deck... We chatted for some time... One thing for sure....

Afnan:''Yana makin tembam sey skrg'' and "enjoy the chicken k?''

So...Yeah... I got KFC...

*makin tembam laa aku nie*

Again...Picture explains it all......

24 July 08... The fire drill alarm went off... The buildings that were involved... W1,W2,W3.. So.... As you guys can see....

W36M sees no urgency at all when the fire drill alarm went off... To be honest, practically, everyone was taking their own sweet time walking... Camwhoring.. Till the security even had to usher us quick to evacuate to the safety point...

But... To no surprise too... We were reversely psycology... Everything that took place didnt only happened to us.. We were amazed by the crowds that went camwhoring too...

Hah!! No sense of urgency at all... If there were really a fire that broke in RP, all I can say..

"All the best.... (:"

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" As I look back on all that's happened.. growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me -- there were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together. As i look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I truly love you. The past may be gone forever.. and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. So, my lifetime friend, it is with all my heart that I send you my love, hoping that you'll always carry my smile with you, for all we meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold"

IMY loaddss Syaz........

So.... Well Well.............

Pictures explain it all.........

First and foremost...

Happy birthday Audrey (Chee Hong)!!!!!

Haha!!! Hope you love the gift from W36M.....

Camwhoring starts here....

Our dear Chee Hong... Making a wish before blowing off the candle... Hmmm.... Guess what she wished for???

First wish: Which I dunnoe.. Her own personal wish..

Second wish: " I wish that Azzy will get a good guy"

Third wish: " I wish that each and everyone of us will have a good partner"

Something like that laa... Wah wah... What a wish laa.....

The mango cake that we bought for Audrey...

This pic taken was random.... I was eating a bread when they called me in... Look! I still have th bread on my hand... haha!!! Just to camwhore with my dearest W36M peepz...

Again... This was random..... My intention was to go to the pantry and refill my bottle with water.. However, I was tempted to take a pic again with my beloved Alan and Azzy..... So uncool laa with that bottle on my hand...

Again.... randomness takes place..... Ah pengz wanted to go for her Muay Thai training... She had her sparring pad with her... The class wanted some "kicks" from me.. So... I gave one laa... Wah wah!! Macam paham jer aku nie.... Tendang mcm ape jek...

I love this pic... The candid pic of us.... If you guys ever notice.. The walls of my class is fully decorated with different kinds of poster... Kewl or wad??? Haha!!! Im so gonna miss W36M laa...

And.... FYI.. I initiated the "jump" style.... Wah.... Non-stop laa us.... jumping like a frog... Wahaha!!!

And..... Last... This is our beautiful class photo... Took this photo right after the 6P... Guess where's our cute faci?? He's the upmost right hand corner of the pic... Wearing black Adidas sweater with his hand over Shamir...

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For all those moments that we've been through... Im so gonna miss all of you laa.....

Awww.... That hug I got from u..... It was random again laa..... I bet those eyes from the two classes were sure on us.... haha!!!!

The W36M Powerpuff Girls... That explains my DP huh???? So.... Azzy is the Buttercup.. Eleanor is the Blossom.. And me.. The Bubbles.... As always... Im always known as the "blur queen".. That explains the "bubbles" in me.... (:

From the back:

Kimchio, Alan, Ele, Azzy, Yana

Anyways.... Am not too sure though wats the purpose of this pic... Ahaha!!!!

Last of all..... Back to work..... Aww... The sweetnes of the pic..... Im so loving it laa....

Well well... This is not all... There's more to this... More pics shall be updatedmon my multiply.. *winks*

W36M: grab more pics from my multiply kays?

Yesterday..... I plucked up and squeezed all my courage.. All I wanted was to clear this mess once and for all... Though to him it may seems like Im at the losing point, as a matter of fact... I wasn't... My first move was definitely meant to break his damn EGO..


I just wanted my stand.. I could no longer live this way.. Leaving me stranded and giving me no sense of direction... Though all in all it may seem practically obvious, I just wanted a final answer....


Finally...I felt my burden at ease... I knew I've said what I've wanted... Its all up to him to accept it or not....


I wish.... I would no longer bum into him after this.... 9 August 08 shall be the last day.....

One thing for sure.... There ain't anymore strings attached to me....

Enough of all the heartbreaks laaa....


Sometimes..... It really hurts getting to know that you only serves as an option... Feelings are inevitable.... Really hurts when all your trust are being abused again and again... At times, I feel like you are playing the hot and cold game with me... What wrong have I done? Haizz....


Azzy......... Be a good distraction for me yeah??? I seriously need a great distraction this time round... Ain't not gonna get myself bitten again...
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And Afnan Zulhusmi.....


Thanx alot for being a great confidant.... 5 years of friendship and still counting on... I miss those days when you would scold me for my stubborness... haha!! And those days when you came down to umi's house late night... Just so especially to see and talk to me.. Wah, mcm tak bersalah gitu..


Btw..umi, nenek rindu Nan tau... Especially nenek.. She's been asking mane kawan yana yang name Afnan tuh... Hehe!!


I know your sincerity towards our friendship explains everything....

Trademark of our friendship......


"Yana tembam or Bambam!!!!''
"Afnan Bunc!!!"


And I know.... You're saving up for the girl of your dreams.... Hmm... As I've always said, don't forget to jemput yana makan Nasi Minyak k??? Im so waiting for that laa.... Haha!!!


I love u Bestfriend....
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And And......... Guess what???

My dearie Allissa called me just now..Aww!! Im effing miss her laa... We chatted long for sure... I miss you too Allissa..... Insyaallah this Sunday or next week we'll meet up and go cycling k??? I so cant wait to meet u up...


Love you Darling... *hugggs*

This pic was taken when me & Allissa was onboard (Cathay Pacific) to Hong Kong

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As random as it seems again.... I always get full of surprises from my beloved... Wee!!!

As random as it seems again....

Am truly appreciated by her presence in my life...

"Thanx for being a great presence in my life. I look forward in having u more like best of friends. Have a good weekend.. I love you Nur Liyana Bte Jamaludin! Haha. Mwahhs!"

Received on 12July08,12.55pm

Wah...Am so touched by that laa...

Coffee or cup??

"The happiest people in the world are not those who have no problems, but those who learn to live with things that are less than perfect."

A group of graduates, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university professor. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life.

Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to the coffee.

When all the students had a cup of coffee, the professor said: "If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the simple and cheap ones. While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. Be assured that the cup itself adds no quality to the coffee. In most cases, it is just more expensive and in some cases even hides what we drink. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups... Then you began eyeing each other's cups."

Now consider this:"Life is the coffee; the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, and the type of cup we have does not define, nor change the quality of Life we live. Sometimes, by concentrating on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee. Enjoy your coffee!."

The happiest people don't have the best of everything. They just make the best of everything.
1. Live simply.
2. Love generously.
3. Care deeply.
4. Speak kindly.

You are the miracle, my friend; your life either shines a light OR casts a shadow!

Shine a light & enjoy the Coffee!!!

Am not reminiscing the past... But... it just flash back in my memory box... The thought of happiness is no longer there...





What do I do now??? Am not anticipating nor hoping for it too.. Fat hope.. I know.. Loneliness strikes again... Am so lost and lonely now...



Sunset and sunrise by the wavebreaker..
Fishing by the Bedok Jetty..
Fireworks by the Marina..

Chocolate E'clair..
Rocky path marsmellow from Candy Empire..
Hazelnut Cadbury..
Coconut drink..

The big TAZ lying on the edge of the bed..
The SK Jewellery kept unopened in the red cube box..
The 129th intake tee..
The green sweater..
The 1GB Creative Zen..

Each time I look at those, it triggers me.. A sense of chill starts to linger around my whole body.. What do I do now??

Yes..Someone tells me what do I do now??

" That is why He created those two lovely eyes in front and not at the back. Never look back on the past and look forward" -- says gf

Time for posting of pics that I've edited... (:

Below is the pics that we took when we went to NeWater on the 4th June 2008..

Headed to College East and pampered ourselves again with the Cafe 1 chicken rice..

So heaven laa...

The BCT gerlz that were present..

1. Liyana

2. Ayu

3. Azzy

4. Ayeen

5. Suhana

6. Sa'idah

And below is a collage pics of Lyy and Azzy...

Seems like we've known each other yeah.....

Pics taken during my NDP training 08..

Nice uniform??

Ahh...COmments please...Haha!!

Simply Lurvee you gerlz..

Im bored actually....

Thought that I might post some pics that I've edited....

Nice?? Nice???

So..Yeah... this is my wonderful and irritating bros...

Though they do irritates me at time, I still love them lotz.......

Being the eldest sibling, but the shortest among them all??

Kewl or wad? haha.... Tell me about it...

Questions asked to be done...

1. What disappoints you the most?

The day when I got to know that baba and umi divorced

2. Where will you go when someone sponsors you a tour ticket?

Hawaii.. !!

3. How many ex you have?

Don't even want to think of it nemore

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?

No

5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?

I just want my old family again... ):

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?

Of cos not... We need money for everything...

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?

My love family!!! But I've just lost my grandpa recently ):

8. If you win a million, what would you do?

I don't even believe that I would. Even if I would, half of my money would go to charity and the other half would be given to my love ones.

9. What do you dream of doing in future?

Being a succesful lab tech or quality personnel..Ehem! Mcm paham...

10. Have you any regrets?

Nope. Humans are not perfect after all. Thus, we do learn from our mistakes.

11. What makes you happy?

MALTESERS and ice cream!! wahaha!! So lame laa...

12. What type of person do you hate the most?

I don't hate anyone for no reason until the moment they break my TRUST in them

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?

Married w kids and having a succesful career??

14. What was the last thing you said to someone?

Gosh!! Tam!! You're wearing PINK today..

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

My love family

16. Any childhood memories that you'll like to re-live?

I want all that lost moment back between me and mummy.....

17. Who are your best buddies?

Aziemah, Azzy, Allissa, Shima, Tam, Afnan.. in fact everyone laa...

18. Which cartoon character you like the most?

Tazmania and Mickey Mouse!!!!!!

19. Are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him/her?

Hmmm..... I don't think so..

20. Are you in love?

What is love??? Haha... Define LOVE...

Instructions:Remove 1 question from above and add your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of thepost. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged

1. Azzy (sorority sis)
2. Izuanto (BCT)
3. Dydy (Bro)
4. Hilmi (cuzzie)
5. Sya (TCC)
6. Adee (mr starhub..hehe)
7. Alan (W36M)
8. Kimberly (W36M)

As random as it seems...

Oooo yaa!!! Yesterday, early in the morning I was already being entertained by Roy.. Kewl or wad?? Look at wad he PM me....

Wahaha!!! Best arh Roy... Early in the morning make me laugh...

Everything happened too fast....

It was unexpected...

A brief descriptions of the events that has been happening past days....

Friday:
Was all ready for school in the morning when baba called.
"Atok tenat"
Waited for baba to fetch me.
Spent the whole day in the hospital.
Thanx Azzy for accompanying me here.
U leaving class halfway and came down all the way from RP to SGH, truly touched my heart.
Left hospital ard 9.30 and me, Azzy and Yat went to mummy house.
Celebrated Danish's burfdae.
"Don't cry bro..Kakak will always be here for you.."

Saturday:
NDP performance.
Truthfully, I feel so breathless wearing the silat uniform.. Wahaha!!
*all pics shall be updated later*
As usual, everyone chilled at McDonalds (Marina Square) after NDP performance.
Made my way to hospital after that and spent the night there.

Sunday:
Went Bedok Sports Hall.
Just so especially to witness Kholique's match.
Nevertheless, it was a good match though.

Monday:
Back to school again.
Suddenly, got a call from Yat.
"Atok passed away"
Rushed home. The body only reached my house after 4.
Famili, relatives, friends came.
Million thanx to Azzy, Ayeen and Tam tam for coming down my house.
Exhausted... Depressed... Lost... Numb...
Spending the night sitting in front of my late grandpa.

Tuesday:
Funeral for my late grandpa.
Last kiss on his forehead.
As much as I wanted to, I just couldnt hold back my tears.
Witness the whole funeral.
One last look at atok before he was buried.
And Majlis tahlil after maghrib.
Last huggs and kisses to all my aunts and cuzzies....

REPENT...
All that I could think of now..
Atok's death was an eye opener to me.
Life is too fragile.
One day, your love ones or yourself will have to leave the world.
Forgive me for all the sins I've done people.........

To: arwah atok

May your soul be blessed always and rest in peace. Every single one of us will surely misses you alot. Your leaving has truly indeed leave a remarkable sense of repentness in my life.

Semoga arwahnye akan senantiasa dicucuri rahmat.

Khusus al-fatihah buat Allahyarham Rahmat Bin Haji Abu Hassan...

Semoga pemergianmu membawa keinsafan dan kesedaran terhadap semua umat Islam..

Amin ya ra'bal 'alamin

Firstly first...



To Hilmi:



I've read your blog... I am so so sorry to hear the pain that you're going through now.. Though I may not be going through it, I do feel the pain.... I hope that you'll go on stay strong... And whatever that may come, do always remember that we are all here for you... Especially the anak "sadins"...



Btw..Im sorry that lately, I havent really been catching up with you nowadays.. Practically, I have been busy with school and stuffs... About the money, Im truly sorry also.. It really slipped off my mind... I hope you dont mind... Also, lately.... I haven't really been going through a good time... (If you know what I mean)



Nevertheless, do stay strong aites??? And for sure... I do miss hanging out with the Sadins... Let's catch up sometime over dinner?? How about it?? Beep me up aites... Take care bro!!!