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Psst: It's here...

Happy Ramadan

Because food isn’t only what you see with your naked eyes

Because food may come in a way of what you feel

Because feelings…it is something that the mind doesn’t understand

Because one can live life without the mind but one can’t live life without a heart

The one..

Cant deny the fact that

Im missing that someone

Actually..

She's adorably cute!

I was about to go terawih when this little baby of mine says:

Iqa: "Kakak, wait. I also want to wear the scarf like you"

And there she goes, putting on her a white scarf.

Iqa: "I want to wear this like you when we go lalan (jalan)"

Me: "But kakak not going jalan. Kakak want to go pray. Ok, next time you go jalan, Iqa can wear this okay?"

Iqa: "Ibu ibu!! Kakak say next time I go lalan can wear this like kakak. Can or not ibu?"

Ibu was smiling at the other hand.

Aww... See.. How amazingly cute and adorable can this little kid be. The way she said it, its like as if she really mean that. Alhamdulillah. I will always pray the best for my family. Early morning, the family made a trip to Pusara Aman. It's been 100 plus days Arwah atok and Arwah Auntie has left us. Coincidentally, the BF was also there. Right after that, went to B.H.

*Sebak lagi hati di dada*

Tried to refrain myself from pouring out cause I don't think it's quite appropriate either to do so. I wonder how he's doing inside. This Thursday comes the final sentence and I jsut pray that it's not going to a tough journey for him.

- Cause of that, the house is pretty gloomy now -

Marhaban Yaa Ramadan

Tiada kerinduan yang sangat dalam,

Selain rindunya hati pada bulan yang mulia ini.

Tiada kenikmatan yang sangat indah,

Selain nikmatnya ibadah dibulan yang suci dan magfiroh ini.

- Kepadanya ku mencari ketenangan hati -

PELANGI

Kadang-kadang Allah sembunyikan matahari,

DIA datangkan petir dan kilat.

Kita tertanya-tanya kemana hilangya matahari,

Rupa-rupanya Allah memberikan kita pelangi ...

"Kebahagiaan itu seperti pelangi, tidak pernah terlihat di atas kepala sendiri, tetapi selalu di atas kepala orang lain" - (Thomas Hardy)

the midnight soul

I think Im absolutely nervous for Chemistry UT that I found myself sleeping at 10pm and accidentally woke up at 11pm feeling hungry and restless. Told mum and sis that I'm hungry and can't get back to sleep. Then, mum decided for a Mac. Happy aku! So, sis, bro Dydy and cuzzie tagged along and the 5 of us headed to Woodlands Mart MacDonalds. This is the first time I'm acting this way. Habes arhh!

*Perangai budak gemok abes!!!*

I thought now would be a good timing to do some last recap on Chemistry. But then, here I am on bloggy. Ouh what a mugger!

Verdict at 9am tomorrow. One week in B.H and One more week to go before the final sentence. Everyone is holding on strong and one thing for sure. I felt so "terkilan" because I didnt had the chance to see him on the last day. You'll always be in my prayer and I will always pray the best for you. Im gonna miss you so much.

Ouh aneways, holy month is just one day away. The day where all muslims in the world participates and refraining themselves from eating, drinking, sexual contact and etc. I've been looking so much for this day. To all my Muslim friends..

"Selamat menjalani Ibadah Puasa"

Not ready..

The lil niece pushed my face away from kissing her goodnight.

She forcefully says that I had durians when I didnt even had any.

*blearrghs*

The BF passed his class 3 TP last two days. Congrats love. But please pardon me, Im still not yet ready to be in the car that you're gonna drive. Heehs.

And yesterday marks our special day again.

Happy anniversary Love ...

= 190809 =

Microbiology UT is down. That left with 3 more UT's to go.

Im nervous and extremely nervous.

Another shocking news today that totally made the whole family in tears.

Im not ready. Really. Not ready for the verdict YET.

Please, Im praying the best for HIM.

- Im not ready to lose you -

I know that Im not suppossed to act this way. Neither should I be having those feelings. It's so unlike me. Really. I don't want to lie to myself, neither do I want to lie to others. The nightmares seems to take control of everything now. Trying very hard to decide what's best. Now I shall say that's the mechanism of life that Im going through now.

Unveiling the mysteries of truth. Pertaining to all the secrets that's happening in the family, I'm trying my very best to do everything that is good for us all. A special thanks to this "hamba Allah" that has sincerely helped me. Going all the way just to tell me everything. Every single thing that has been a mystery to us. Deep down my heart, I know I want nothing but the best of everything for my loved ones.

None of us wants something that is bad for anyone. No matter how bad a person mistakes can be, I believe that every single human being in this world should be given the chance to change themselves. Im excited yet nervous. Thousands of emotions are running through the mind now. Im not quite sure if I can be at the best service for them now. But deep down my heart, I know I want all this to be settled for once. Like I said, I just want nothing but the best for us all. And I really mean it.

With HIS permissions, I'm praying for a better tomorrow. All of us back as one before the special day comes. That's my wish.

To all my RP mates, all the best for upcoming UT 3. Study hard people and happy happy holidays.

- Follow what the heart says and not the mind -

I never knew that revising for UT 3 would be such a headache. I missed certain problems due to hospitalisation and LOA. Missed all the UT 2. So, it's double the weightage for UT 3. PP report have yet to be completed.

Sometimes, I just feel that Im at the verge of breaking down. I think I need those Vitamin pills. Plus all the things that's happening lately, it's double the blow to me. Im not sure if I can be entertained or entertain you. I just wanna get this UT 3 over and done so that I can regain myself back again.

And.. I just need you to understand the situation that I'm in now. Please dont make things worse. I know I'm always a pain in your ass. It's always been me. You know what? I give up. Really. I can't take it anymore.

- It's enough hearing the word that I've been longing for so long from you -

Thanks to Ibu and Umi for making a mini celebration for Dydy's birthday. See, both your mom and the family loves you. Dont ever say that we forgot your birthday hokays? Aneways, its nice looking at the family all together again =)

P.S: Ur bdae present will be a belated one alrite?

Up next, cam-whoring with my two lil rascals right after tutoring them. The last shoot, I managed to pull in my mum. Heehs. Love you mummy =))

Ouh aneways, I tried to tell you and in fact, did told you the truth. It's unlike me to keep anything and worst still, lying to myself. I know I cant. So, it's a matter of fact of whether you being able to accept those or not. When you said it's all about trust, so, that is what Im potraying to you now. So, dont try to give me all those shits. It's so unlike you. Really. But if you think that's right for you, then go ahead.

Ouh, I got home with a swollen knee today. Mini bike accident. Wells, I blindly knocked onto a bike actually. Weird, but true and the knee is in real pain. Hoping that the icing will work for now.

-Praying for a better tomorrow-

It was the last problem for BioChemistry and we decided for some cam-whoring.

We have the FB kakis, the 'PON' kakis, the movie kakis and the perangai kakis.

Name it all. We have almost everything here. *giggles*

So then, the usual kakis were comtemplating to partial or not.

The faci were actually a pain in my ass. Like for real.

So, in the end, we decided for a movie. Woohoo!

I know I shouldnt be typing this down because

the BF does not even know about this matter AT ALL. *oooops*

Aneways, it's over pon. Soorry love.

And I know you would be reading this, please

forgive me for ONCE? kk?

From above left: Nana, Lyy, Qahh, Ida

Aneways, I shall say that this bunch of people really rocks the journey of my Biochemistry lesson especially Randal. Im at always at loggerheads with him FYI. Hehe!

It's worth my 6 bucks alright? Like really.. I have Atiqah on my left, closing the eyes for some parts, Ida on my right, closing the ears, Lydia two seats away throwing popcorns at Wan and people at back. Gerek or what? LOL. Off for my tutoring right after the movie and it's my payday. Weehoo!

Love fetch me at home later at night for dinner at Al-Azhar Bukit Timah. Ibu and baba was busy removing the oil paint of the door house when we reached home. Yeay! Finally there's gonna be a new colour on the house door.

Ouh and again. It's Dydy birthday today. Happy 18th Birthday Bro... Daa besar, tolong be wise k My Alien bro! Aku sayang kau ehk!

My newest addiction. "Nur Kasih"

I shall thanks my two ladies here, Farahehh and Aeisha'B for

talking so much about the drama that one day, I found myself

24/7 on youtube just for this.

The story of love. Love towards religion, parents, family and oneself.

Perseverance. Patience. Empathy. Love.

P.S: You'll find the beautiful and true elements of Islam.

Too many things,

With so little time ...

Not so soon for any post.

Long hiatus I guess ...